[yeah]
i want to cut away the very part of me that you infest
So..
Where to start?
I went back to work Monday after a 2 month medical leave, it was a mandatory leave and I hated it.
Work is already killing me and I've only been back for 3 days. HEH
I'm stuck in a 7 week training course because we're adopting a new system for the financial merger.
After the course is over, I'll train others on how to use it and then come June/July it'll be integrated into the corporation.
Which means, the vacation I scheduled a month ago for June was revoked and I'm pissed.
I understand why but it does not mean I cannot be pissed off about it.
Come August, I can put in for a transfer, which I've been thinking alot about.
Anywho, vacation will either be May or August now. I cant wait. I just need one, YES already.
TJ is driving me insane, living situation is insane. I want to die.
I cannot take this emotional warfare.
I'm crumbling unlike any rate I've ever done before.
He's literally breaking me apart and down.
One of us needs to leave and we're both being stubborn.
There is a guy. What guy, you ask? Well, this one guy, I answer.
He's great, funny, caring, sincere, and he makes me smile.
I have NO idea why. But, he does.
I care about him, unlike the other few I care about, I truly care for him.
And I've not known him more than a month.
His voice makes me giggle. His smile is adorable.
I feel I am falling at an unimaginable rate and I cant comprehend why.
I know I am though, for once in my life I feel envious.
When he flirts with other people, I feel jealous.
THAT'S so not me.
I was always the care-less kind of gal.
WTF is going on? Why am I feeling this way?
I am longing to feel him, all around me, inside me, over me.
Pining for some guy that hasnt yet kissed or touched me.
But yet, I care about how he perceives me, I want to feel his arms holding me.
I somehow feel he could be the one to make me finally feel.. safe.
-sigh-
Who knows.
-J
So..
Where to start?
I went back to work Monday after a 2 month medical leave, it was a mandatory leave and I hated it.
Work is already killing me and I've only been back for 3 days. HEH
I'm stuck in a 7 week training course because we're adopting a new system for the financial merger.
After the course is over, I'll train others on how to use it and then come June/July it'll be integrated into the corporation.
Which means, the vacation I scheduled a month ago for June was revoked and I'm pissed.
I understand why but it does not mean I cannot be pissed off about it.
Come August, I can put in for a transfer, which I've been thinking alot about.
Anywho, vacation will either be May or August now. I cant wait. I just need one, YES already.
TJ is driving me insane, living situation is insane. I want to die.
I cannot take this emotional warfare.
I'm crumbling unlike any rate I've ever done before.
He's literally breaking me apart and down.
One of us needs to leave and we're both being stubborn.
There is a guy. What guy, you ask? Well, this one guy, I answer.
He's great, funny, caring, sincere, and he makes me smile.
I have NO idea why. But, he does.
I care about him, unlike the other few I care about, I truly care for him.
And I've not known him more than a month.
His voice makes me giggle. His smile is adorable.
I feel I am falling at an unimaginable rate and I cant comprehend why.
I know I am though, for once in my life I feel envious.
When he flirts with other people, I feel jealous.
THAT'S so not me.
I was always the care-less kind of gal.
WTF is going on? Why am I feeling this way?
I am longing to feel him, all around me, inside me, over me.
Pining for some guy that hasnt yet kissed or touched me.
But yet, I care about how he perceives me, I want to feel his arms holding me.
I somehow feel he could be the one to make me finally feel.. safe.
-sigh-
Who knows.
-J