I hate days like today
Well... today has been okay I guess.. Its just made me sigh.. alot. I dont know whats wrong.. I feel like calling up friends and going to the mall or hanging out.. But then again I dont. I feel like I'm getting sick, yet, I feel like that all the time. Well... Christine is sure going out of her way to get me down to Oceanside. I hope it works.. I miss the beach.. and everyone.. and everything. But.. I have some things to get accomplished... Find $150.. get my hair re highlighted... and get my naval pierced O_o. Yeah I know.. it seems like alot but it really isnt. I feel really ignored around the house.. like all of my attention is focused towards my brothers or something.. and I have been waking up at like 12 lately..which is weird.. because it doesnt matter the time I go to sleep. Anyway.. I havent really posted a "journal" post in a while... so.. here you all go. -"You never really cared, so why exactly should I? All I did was try to help and all you did was lie. Whenever I ached and needed you, you were never here.. its like everything I said to you went out one and through another ear. Though its hard to tell you its over, because I still love you so.. You cant seem to build up the courage to even let me know. So now I leave you with this letter.. from only me to you... all I ever wanted was to love you.. and for you to love me too."- Yeah.. thats the kind of mood I'm in.. I dont know why.. and my mood doesnt even involove love.. or heartache.. it just involves being contimplative.. towards everything.