waiting to wake up
had a great night with mary last night..actually, I lied. I had an amazing night with mary last night. found out my friend is hurt, so I went outside for about three hours..walked all over richmond..got hit on by a he/she prostitute..ate potato chips outside the church. watched mary and robert emily run around. then for some reason mary's parents let her go home with rachel, no idea why..but they did. and we had much needed time together..but something didn't feel right. about what we did, I wish we hadn't done it there because it was rachel's..something about that just makes it weird. Hopefully it will be at my house soon, and we can cuddle thereeee and it will feel eeveeeeeeeen better :) she asked me back out..that was great. I didn't get to talk to her about some shit that's been bothering me, but I think I'm going to work it out on my own, so i can learn. she can't always hear how I feel..sometimes it might be too ugly. then I came home..everything crashed down in about a matter of 3 minutes after walking in the door. Mary was there for me..Rachel was there for me..I went to bed at 4:30 AM and woke up at 7:30..I tried to drag myself out of bed to my car to drive to mary and give her a note..I got dressed, then fell back in bed. went back to sleep. woke up at 9:10 or so and had more energy, so I decided to go see her..something I've never felt before.I 've never been so tired in my life, but I had to see her. I would've walked if I had to. I had to hold her before the week started..god I love that girl. Maybe I can tell her some things about last night later..and how beautiful she is. woo boyyy..just hope she is honest with me. logging out now.