and it's with you
so things feel a bit surreal and misunderstood. calm and jittery all at the same time. standing outside smelling the air all inside i can't shake it. one minute i am sound and solid but thinking thinking leads me to dead ends. i need reassurance and i need to be bold and hold on to this lovely feeling of bliss. a little insecure i step naked in the darkness waiting to find my way back into warmth. so many times i find myself falling back in the same place and i think i have finally decided it might be where i belong. i said i was thinking about it a lot and i was... but the thing that keeps anyone from doing what they want is the other side. dead silence. what am i saying. are our ears opening because we keep finding ourselves side by side a little slanted. before i was out and you were in. and when i was in you were out and now i just know it all gets a little a messy. i guess its always been a little thrown about but what did i expect. the only thing since the beginning of you was a kiss on a bridge and i felt terribly guilty, even though i had been waiting for it so long. it's starting to eat slowly at all things moving... "I am up in the clouds, I am up in the clouds where i can't get down". what has happened. my own thoughts have turned on me and i can't stop.