Dream Puppies
So ever since I've graduated I have been dying for a pet, a real fluffy pet that I can huggle (aka, not a fish). My parents wouldn't let me have one because the transition of college and they didn't want to take care of it for me, which makes sense and is fine but now, I still want one. I just worry, apparently.
I've been having this reoccuring dream. I had it last night, last week, and at least twice before (plus one related one that took place in a different area and with more pets). First it takes place in a trailerhouse much like the one I grew up in only it is mine. It started with a fish which I forgot had. I found it while cleaning and it's bowel was dirty and it looked sick so I cleaned it and fed it and was crying at how horrible it was that it had to suffer because I forgot about it. The second dream I had found a litter of 7 puppies and took them home and for some reason remembered I had kittens too and spent the dream searching for them and ignoring the puppies and crying because I had forgotten about them and thinking that they were starving and sad and possibly dead. The third dream I found them (there were 3) but they were weak and sad and I tried to get them to eat but then I remembered the puppies and tried to find them but I could only find 3 and they weren't moving and I tried to find the others.
Then the one I had last night. I gave up on the others and took the 3 kittens and 3 puppies and tried to force them to eat but they wouldn't and we did not have porper food for them so me and for some reason one of my best friends in high school, Tiffany, went out with them in our car on Christmas eve when it was snowing to find an open pet store and all we could find was the hardware store, ACE and they all they had was hard food for adult dogs and cats and we couldn't feed them that (didn't occur to us to buy it anyway and soak it in water to make it softer) so we set out once again to find a walmart and the dream ended.
Oh yeah and somewhere around there I had a rabbit but the rabbit was fine. Everytime I saw it it seemed happy and was eating alfalfa. Selfsufficient little thing. I think I had a hampster too but it died...oh and I also had a corkie in the last dream. I blame Cowboy Bebop for that.
I don't know what these dreams are trying to tell me but it makes me really want a pet so I can prove to the universe that I WONT forget about it and I will love it and be very happy with it. I know that when I was a kid I never took care of my cat and my mom ended up feeding it which is why after it died (of old age) my mom said no more big animals like cats and dogs. But I was like, little. What did I know about responsibility?
I know Eric wants to wait until we get our own place and wont have to worry about money issues as much, which I understand and agree with, but dammit I miss having a pet. Especially a cat or a dog. I miss things that will curl up with you. When I was home most of my relatives have dogs so it wasn't so bad, and here Heather had her kitty, but now the kitty is at her home in Ohio and the kitty that came out to play next door no longer comes around. That and I am allergic and it sucks. I really wanted to pet Erica's cat when I went to visit but we were going out and I didn't want to be all sniffly that night. I hate allergies and I really want a pet again. No more mice, my last mouse got all sickly and it was sad and in the end I couldn't take it home and LeeAnn ended up being nice and doing that for me. No more little things in general. I'm always afraid of dropping them and then they run away and I never find them. A rabbit would be fine, a cat or a dog would be good. I do want a hedgehog but I know I'd be too afraid to pick it up and they like attention so maybe that is a bad idea.
Maybe I will go to the pet store today and ask to hold one of the bunnies. Sometimes it helps just to hold one. Eric will have to go with me though to stop me from buying one XD
I've been having this reoccuring dream. I had it last night, last week, and at least twice before (plus one related one that took place in a different area and with more pets). First it takes place in a trailerhouse much like the one I grew up in only it is mine. It started with a fish which I forgot had. I found it while cleaning and it's bowel was dirty and it looked sick so I cleaned it and fed it and was crying at how horrible it was that it had to suffer because I forgot about it. The second dream I had found a litter of 7 puppies and took them home and for some reason remembered I had kittens too and spent the dream searching for them and ignoring the puppies and crying because I had forgotten about them and thinking that they were starving and sad and possibly dead. The third dream I found them (there were 3) but they were weak and sad and I tried to get them to eat but then I remembered the puppies and tried to find them but I could only find 3 and they weren't moving and I tried to find the others.
Then the one I had last night. I gave up on the others and took the 3 kittens and 3 puppies and tried to force them to eat but they wouldn't and we did not have porper food for them so me and for some reason one of my best friends in high school, Tiffany, went out with them in our car on Christmas eve when it was snowing to find an open pet store and all we could find was the hardware store, ACE and they all they had was hard food for adult dogs and cats and we couldn't feed them that (didn't occur to us to buy it anyway and soak it in water to make it softer) so we set out once again to find a walmart and the dream ended.
Oh yeah and somewhere around there I had a rabbit but the rabbit was fine. Everytime I saw it it seemed happy and was eating alfalfa. Selfsufficient little thing. I think I had a hampster too but it died...oh and I also had a corkie in the last dream. I blame Cowboy Bebop for that.
I don't know what these dreams are trying to tell me but it makes me really want a pet so I can prove to the universe that I WONT forget about it and I will love it and be very happy with it. I know that when I was a kid I never took care of my cat and my mom ended up feeding it which is why after it died (of old age) my mom said no more big animals like cats and dogs. But I was like, little. What did I know about responsibility?
I know Eric wants to wait until we get our own place and wont have to worry about money issues as much, which I understand and agree with, but dammit I miss having a pet. Especially a cat or a dog. I miss things that will curl up with you. When I was home most of my relatives have dogs so it wasn't so bad, and here Heather had her kitty, but now the kitty is at her home in Ohio and the kitty that came out to play next door no longer comes around. That and I am allergic and it sucks. I really wanted to pet Erica's cat when I went to visit but we were going out and I didn't want to be all sniffly that night. I hate allergies and I really want a pet again. No more mice, my last mouse got all sickly and it was sad and in the end I couldn't take it home and LeeAnn ended up being nice and doing that for me. No more little things in general. I'm always afraid of dropping them and then they run away and I never find them. A rabbit would be fine, a cat or a dog would be good. I do want a hedgehog but I know I'd be too afraid to pick it up and they like attention so maybe that is a bad idea.
Maybe I will go to the pet store today and ask to hold one of the bunnies. Sometimes it helps just to hold one. Eric will have to go with me though to stop me from buying one XD