when do you get to that point where enough is enough.....
so, when? when you're tired of it all? is it ok, then, to just let go?
if you've got a whole lotta nothing going for you, why are you still going?
last night i went to the hospital. i was there for seven or eight hours. they gave me ketorolac and suprax. on top of the oxycodone and ibuprofin ive been taking. an antibiotic and pain medicine. i have a kidney infection on top of stones. that's all i need. oh yes and i nearly forgot the ginormous bruise on my arm from the IV. i've never seen anything quite so purple. maybe if i don't take the antibiotic i'll die faster.
i wondered out loud yesterday why my mom didn't just kill me when i was born. isn't that what animals do when their children are sickly? it would have saved her lots of time and money. it would have saved her the costs of the hospital bills and the refills. it would have saved her the stress.
yesterday was the beginning of lent. what did i give up? breathing. when you're in this much pain breathing is utterly pointless.
to the five of you (bailey - kelly - emily - caitlin - ryan) that actually cared enough to ask..thanks. thanks, emily, for your prayers.
valentine's day is on monday.
if you've got a whole lotta nothing going for you, why are you still going?
last night i went to the hospital. i was there for seven or eight hours. they gave me ketorolac and suprax. on top of the oxycodone and ibuprofin ive been taking. an antibiotic and pain medicine. i have a kidney infection on top of stones. that's all i need. oh yes and i nearly forgot the ginormous bruise on my arm from the IV. i've never seen anything quite so purple. maybe if i don't take the antibiotic i'll die faster.
i wondered out loud yesterday why my mom didn't just kill me when i was born. isn't that what animals do when their children are sickly? it would have saved her lots of time and money. it would have saved her the costs of the hospital bills and the refills. it would have saved her the stress.
yesterday was the beginning of lent. what did i give up? breathing. when you're in this much pain breathing is utterly pointless.
to the five of you (bailey - kelly - emily - caitlin - ryan) that actually cared enough to ask..thanks. thanks, emily, for your prayers.
valentine's day is on monday.