stress ...
so yeah, tomorrow i have an interview which is kinda stressing me out. first of all, it's been over a year since my last interview. second, the position asks for more experience than i have. i know i'm qualified and i've been busting my ass at work to get where i'm at but i don't know if it's gonna be enough. i guess i just have to hope for the best.
stressing about tomorrow also brought up some things that got me a bit emo. i haven't been having the best of weeks recently. amongst other things, the main issue at hand is that i'm finally putting myself out there in the dating scene. i went on my first 'date' last week after about 1 1/2 years and i thought it went well. we had fun and scheduled a next date. got postponed and never happened. apparently i thought that our connection was stronger than what was actually present. it's not the end of the world but i was really looking forward to it. i even scheduled something special but i guess that didn't happen. i'm the type of person who doesn't like it when i'm the only one trying to make things work. i could be totally wrong in this situation but that's what it seems like to me. if it were the other way around, i wouldn't like it either. i don't think putting in the effort is worth it. at least right now.
anyways, i guess i should go back to studying. this is something i want and i need to put in as much effort as i can. or else, what's the point. good luck to me ...