clueless ...
so yeah, last night was pretty fun. well, except for the whole scary ghost stories part since i'm sucha scaredy-cat when it comes to those things. i ate so freaking much though. dangget! haha.
anyways, it was cool hanging out with friends and all. considering it was a day that has special meaning to me, i tried not to be all emo and think about it as much. but yeah, still kinda sucks. maybe i'm still holding on to something when i should be moving on instead. but how? i don't even know how anymore cause i'm not used to this lifestyle. yeah, it's something that i wanted because i know i don't want to settle down just quite yet. unfortunately, i'm still feeling it. other people move on real quickly but i don't think i can yet. not that there's anything wrong with that. maybe i'm just thinking about things a bit too much. i'm just so clueless now. 3 1/2 years of my life was for someone, with someone. and though we decided to part ways for both of our sakes, i still find myself reluctant. maybe i just got comfortable with how my life was. i don't know anymore. i'm experiencing life-altering decisions right now and i'll have to admit, i'm somewhat scared. of change, of the future. i guess i'll just have to see how everything turns out ...
anyways, it was cool hanging out with friends and all. considering it was a day that has special meaning to me, i tried not to be all emo and think about it as much. but yeah, still kinda sucks. maybe i'm still holding on to something when i should be moving on instead. but how? i don't even know how anymore cause i'm not used to this lifestyle. yeah, it's something that i wanted because i know i don't want to settle down just quite yet. unfortunately, i'm still feeling it. other people move on real quickly but i don't think i can yet. not that there's anything wrong with that. maybe i'm just thinking about things a bit too much. i'm just so clueless now. 3 1/2 years of my life was for someone, with someone. and though we decided to part ways for both of our sakes, i still find myself reluctant. maybe i just got comfortable with how my life was. i don't know anymore. i'm experiencing life-altering decisions right now and i'll have to admit, i'm somewhat scared. of change, of the future. i guess i'll just have to see how everything turns out ...