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rose and i took pepe to the vet today. she has two tumors. one has attacthed itself to the lymphnode (sp) on her neck. She also appears to have congestive heart failure. the vet called her a "geriatric rat." Sad.But true. I love her lots and will do whatever I can to make her comfortable. In fact, I am going to go hold her right now.
She gave us some medicine and said that once her heart clears up (if it does) she may or may not be a candidate for surgery on her tumors. I feel compelled to put her through surgery if possible. I have a feeling she will make it. I really feel like Pepe is a trooper. Then again, I also can never visualise her death. So maybe my thoughts for surgery are dillusional. Death is also a birth right of hers. I don't want to put her down. I feel like she should die how rats are supposed to die. Then again, she hasn't lived how rats are supposed to live. Instead she has lived in a cage, in our house. So maybe I should take care of her in death, too. We will figure this out eventually. One step at a time.
I think my milk supply is back up. but I'm pumping so much, it's hard to tell. Thank god my supply didn't dry up. I love my lactation consultant.
So gald to be back in Texas. Freezing rain, power outages and all :)
She gave us some medicine and said that once her heart clears up (if it does) she may or may not be a candidate for surgery on her tumors. I feel compelled to put her through surgery if possible. I have a feeling she will make it. I really feel like Pepe is a trooper. Then again, I also can never visualise her death. So maybe my thoughts for surgery are dillusional. Death is also a birth right of hers. I don't want to put her down. I feel like she should die how rats are supposed to die. Then again, she hasn't lived how rats are supposed to live. Instead she has lived in a cage, in our house. So maybe I should take care of her in death, too. We will figure this out eventually. One step at a time.
I think my milk supply is back up. but I'm pumping so much, it's hard to tell. Thank god my supply didn't dry up. I love my lactation consultant.
So gald to be back in Texas. Freezing rain, power outages and all :)