The holidays seem to have put me in a similar "I hate breastfeeding" funk. Everywhere we go, I have to be there and I have to feed him. If this isn't convenient for everyone else I'm exiled to a private area for half an hour at a time to "take care of it." It seems like formula would be so much easier because then I could just have someone else feed him, and I could a glass of wine w/o getting dirty looks.
The only problem with this is formula is fucking expensive. Even if I could deal with the guilt of not doing "what's best for baby" I'd probably be even more stressed out trying to come up with the extra cash in my budget (since there is none).
All moms have problems, the ones that don't are lying or not paying attention to their kids. Elijah has had a bright red rash off and on for the last week, but he doesn't seem bothered by it, so I'm attributing the looser stools/teething stuff. Also, less daycare + more nursing + extra holiday sweets = I feel like I'm getting yeast on my devil (left) boob again. For now I'm laying off the sweets and doubling up on the acidophilus, I think it'll do the trick.
You can get through this, I'm sure your supply will return once you're able to get home and comfortable again. Increased stress has been a killer for me in the past when it comes to the amount I'm pumping. I also found that I was kind of rushing to pump if that makes any sense. My lactation consultant always said not to watch the clock because it would put too much stress on you, but I found the opposite. I turned out I was only pumping like 5-10 minutes and quiting. I started keeping a watch in my pumping area and if I made sure I gave myself 5-6 minutes from the time I stopped getting anything out, I would eventually get a second letdown. Lots of deep breathing, but I'm sure you know since you're the one who told me to do it. I have some nursing mom's tea with fenugreek I can send you if you want.
The only problem with this is formula is fucking expensive. Even if I could deal with the guilt of not doing "what's best for baby" I'd probably be even more stressed out trying to come up with the extra cash in my budget (since there is none).
All moms have problems, the ones that don't are lying or not paying attention to their kids. Elijah has had a bright red rash off and on for the last week, but he doesn't seem bothered by it, so I'm attributing the looser stools/teething stuff. Also, less daycare + more nursing + extra holiday sweets = I feel like I'm getting yeast on my devil (left) boob again. For now I'm laying off the sweets and doubling up on the acidophilus, I think it'll do the trick.
You can get through this, I'm sure your supply will return once you're able to get home and comfortable again. Increased stress has been a killer for me in the past when it comes to the amount I'm pumping. I also found that I was kind of rushing to pump if that makes any sense. My lactation consultant always said not to watch the clock because it would put too much stress on you, but I found the opposite. I turned out I was only pumping like 5-10 minutes and quiting. I started keeping a watch in my pumping area and if I made sure I gave myself 5-6 minutes from the time I stopped getting anything out, I would eventually get a second letdown. Lots of deep breathing, but I'm sure you know since you're the one who told me to do it. I have some nursing mom's tea with fenugreek I can send you if you want.
<3 you guys, I hope you had a happy new year!
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