My Thoughts Get Louder When I Go To Bed
Whydon'ttheylikeme?Noonecares.Ihatebeingaloneallthetime. Blindedhateeatsyourheart.Ihateitall.Noonetotalkto.Hindenmessages. Theyhateyou.Forgetthemall.Takecareofyourself.Noonewillwipeurass4u.Becomeaman.Whydoesshehateme?IamIreallythatfat?WhydoIliketoseeotherspainleakingfromthem????????????????????????????
Dotheyhateme?WhycantIdoanythingright?Nothingisnevergoodenough.
Iamsoconfused.Whydidshenotcome?Whydidhenotsayanything?Whydidshesaythat?TheyhatemeIknowtheydo.Makethempay.Kill.Ineedsomethingelsetothinkabout.DidIdomyhomework?WhatifIfail?Nooneiswhattheyseemtobe.WhydoIlikethesehorriblethings.
Should I even care ?
I have been through alot but...yeah...who cares. I have taken those hidden emotions of mine and covered them up for the world to never see, but the angr just wouldn’t stay...it grew...and grew...until I said and did actions that I am not so proud of...even though I am still mad ...I found a new way ...a new path....
It takes people a whole life time or almost never to find their true self (if that’s what you want to call it)
I think I might be close to this. Stupid? Yes!! The truth? maybe Don’t care? SO
I think I am getting close...not there...but close... you should know this when you start to understand why you did what you did even though everyone else thinks it was wrong....to look at your self in the mirror and ask WHO AM I?WHAT AM I HERE FOR? ....and know those answers...I hope that in a few years I will have those answers.
BUT...for now I evolve…not change or rearrange…to keep the same thoughts and same dress…but see things in a new way…not completely different …just better..
……..BULLSHIT?? MAYBE…..
Take life by the horns and not be the tail.
Everthing comes out fine in the end atleastthatiswhatitellmyself
Dotheyhateme?WhycantIdoanythingright?Nothingisnevergoodenough.
Iamsoconfused.Whydidshenotcome?Whydidhenotsayanything?Whydidshesaythat?TheyhatemeIknowtheydo.Makethempay.Kill.Ineedsomethingelsetothinkabout.DidIdomyhomework?WhatifIfail?Nooneiswhattheyseemtobe.WhydoIlikethesehorriblethings.
Should I even care ?
I have been through alot but...yeah...who cares. I have taken those hidden emotions of mine and covered them up for the world to never see, but the angr just wouldn’t stay...it grew...and grew...until I said and did actions that I am not so proud of...even though I am still mad ...I found a new way ...a new path....
It takes people a whole life time or almost never to find their true self (if that’s what you want to call it)
I think I might be close to this. Stupid? Yes!! The truth? maybe Don’t care? SO
I think I am getting close...not there...but close... you should know this when you start to understand why you did what you did even though everyone else thinks it was wrong....to look at your self in the mirror and ask WHO AM I?WHAT AM I HERE FOR? ....and know those answers...I hope that in a few years I will have those answers.
BUT...for now I evolve…not change or rearrange…to keep the same thoughts and same dress…but see things in a new way…not completely different …just better..
……..BULLSHIT?? MAYBE…..
Take life by the horns and not be the tail.
Everthing comes out fine in the end atleastthatiswhatitellmyself