That feeling ....what is it???

[disemboweled]

I have that feeling again and it wont go away. I don't really know what it is or how to xplain it...I dont even know why I have it...
Its this emty feeling I get every now and then...it's like somthing inside of me that gets to me...it makes me feel alone and empty like somthing is missing but I don't know what.

I think for hours tryn to find what is wrong with me but i can't find it...
The weird thing is that I use to only get it when I am away from home ...its not homesick cuz I know what that feels like...but its something different....I am home and I have it...

It reminds me of this other strange feeling that is almost the same but I know more about it....
I set alone...no noise no nothing...and I think ..I sent everything aside ...and think...I ask myself questions like ...who am I ..What am I...Where did I come from..and pretend that I know nothing at all and then this feeling comes over me...its this weird feeling of lonely darkness that makes me feel useless

oooo well ...its good to learn to control emotions because it helps you learn more about yourself but im just blah blah blah blah

the end