Life sucks
Man I really hate when things change...even more so when they are big changes.
I just get this weird homesick feeling..that keeps coming and going
It upsets me when I think too much about everything...like...
Most of the people I talk to today are not the ones I called friends a while back...things change and people move on...but I feel I cant do anything about it.
I think that as I get older I will become more and more alone. and that just sucks...
I know people will leave for college and set up camp other places...and I know there will be some changes in everyone that still stay local...
It sucks to know that sometime soon...there will be no one around that you know or can relate to...and that long distance friend thing just doesnt work too well.
Myb I should start finding more people to hang out with...and do more stuff with the people already around me...stop looking at all the bad and look at all the good in things for once...
but....my personality wont let me do this...
I have to...look at the bad before the good
I have to ..be asked/invited before I even think about going
I have to..hang out with a person for a while before I really talk to them.
....but...do I really have to...Me being shy wont change...but I could start taking more "chances" ...
Is it easier to make things happen then to let them happen?
I try so hard to not step on anyones toes but that fear has stopped me from doing some fun things...
Life is too short to dwell on things ...it has taken up alot of my time...I should just do things...forget what I think others might think ...but if i show up uninvited...then i would be just like the other people that I dont like that do that...well...those people are mostly the ones that everyone doesnt like.
myb I should stop worrying ...and just think ...happy...haha
I have told others that ...you just wait and see..things always work themselves out...its partly true..but you should make things happen...if you want to hangout
call people up
...then there is always the "what if" ...what if they are already doing something?...that counts you out...what if they seem like they dont want to? ..see looking at the bad...
The more people you talk to ...the better chance you have of finding someone that wants to do something
now all I need are more people to hang out with ..but first these feelings of thinking people dont want me around have to go ...
My real problem is that i care too much
(nice talking with myself)
I just get this weird homesick feeling..that keeps coming and going
It upsets me when I think too much about everything...like...
Most of the people I talk to today are not the ones I called friends a while back...things change and people move on...but I feel I cant do anything about it.
I think that as I get older I will become more and more alone. and that just sucks...
I know people will leave for college and set up camp other places...and I know there will be some changes in everyone that still stay local...
It sucks to know that sometime soon...there will be no one around that you know or can relate to...and that long distance friend thing just doesnt work too well.
Myb I should start finding more people to hang out with...and do more stuff with the people already around me...stop looking at all the bad and look at all the good in things for once...
but....my personality wont let me do this...
I have to...look at the bad before the good
I have to ..be asked/invited before I even think about going
I have to..hang out with a person for a while before I really talk to them.
....but...do I really have to...Me being shy wont change...but I could start taking more "chances" ...
Is it easier to make things happen then to let them happen?
I try so hard to not step on anyones toes but that fear has stopped me from doing some fun things...
Life is too short to dwell on things ...it has taken up alot of my time...I should just do things...forget what I think others might think ...but if i show up uninvited...then i would be just like the other people that I dont like that do that...well...those people are mostly the ones that everyone doesnt like.
myb I should stop worrying ...and just think ...happy...haha
I have told others that ...you just wait and see..things always work themselves out...its partly true..but you should make things happen...if you want to hangout
call people up
...then there is always the "what if" ...what if they are already doing something?...that counts you out...what if they seem like they dont want to? ..see looking at the bad...
The more people you talk to ...the better chance you have of finding someone that wants to do something
now all I need are more people to hang out with ..but first these feelings of thinking people dont want me around have to go ...
My real problem is that i care too much
(nice talking with myself)