me again... yeah, I know

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Oh my, I do not remember when I last updated. I am... tired, since it's 6AM and I did not bother going to sleep, but it is all part of my plan to get on a more regular sleep schedule. The heat and humidity just killed me. It was over a hundred degrees and felt even hotter, and of course, I have no air conditioner. I could not sleep at night, and I kept showering and showering and though the icy showers were nice (I forget in the winter that being cold is sometimes a luxury!) I hated leaving them to step on the heated floor. I called a friend of mine, mentioned that I was sitting naked in front of the fan in the dark hungry because I dared not turn on the lights or cook anything and he laughed and laughed, and I would have laughed, had it not been me in that position! I am so tired of summer, and this is after missing most of July.

Argentina was fabulous, I hope that the mail (if I wrote to you) got to you, sorry sorry if it did not, but really, I cannot be blamed for the postal system, can I? I have been trying to job hunt and trying to decide what to do with the rest of my life, and fuck, it is so damn difficult, I don't know anything. I feel that college has not prepared me for anything, just to be able to say that I survived college. And now I have to somehow make a future?!! I hate the real world. I want to not have to think and all that. I am so tired of everything, and I know in part it's the depression, but still, everything just feels like it sucks at times.

I have not even quit my job yet! Ugh!

Now, I am tired of LJing, so I will shut up now.