Jul 06, 2005 02:23
Lovely ... Never, ever change.
Keep that breathless charm.
Won't you please arrange it ?
'Cause I love you ... Just the way you look tonigh :)
- i miss having that feeling, like your on top of the world; being in love and all you know. having that trust, and that bond, and thinking everythings undercontrol, no mistakes could be made, and as long as you 2 were therefor eachother, nothing would ever go wrong. And yet it left so fast.. but i never stopped smiling while i saw it falling apart, i stood there and tried to save it, with every last breath i had, and im a better person because of it.
So today was chill and fun. i woke up at like 1, talked to megan, went for a little jog, went to the pool for an hour. Than me and everyone went to joes and had a firecracker and bottle rocket fight. I had a wierd feeling and i was hungry so i went home, and sure enough something wierd happened. Tiffany said something to me that was so dumb. I know shes probably reading this, but im not going to bullshit about it, its kinda funny how you know someones intentions about things, and you know they probably feel bad and shit, but they still dont get it, and still try and act the same. I guess in a way ive changed and become a new me; yet the old me lingers in my personality still. I still feel like somethings missing, and im still not used to not having thatt "loving" feeling anymore. But everyday i get better, and everyday i smile more. Tonight was great, listening to berry white, made me so happy looking at the stars <3 ahahaha. But to make sense; theres no bullshit in my life anymore, and people know who they are, that i dont talk to anymore because all they do is fuck my life up. And im still my self, im still going to hear what you have to say.. because ill always be the better person and respect somebody for that, but dont fuck with my life if your not going to change and quit stupid ways. Your apology doesnt mean shit to me, if you dont know what you did, and if you wont act on it. Fix your mistakes, by fixing your self. End of story.
Im tired, and im happy, and im out.
Sweet dreams peoples.