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Okay, so. I'm here, all alone in the computer room. I've been brooding. I've gained so much weight. I know, it's all I ever talk about these days. I'm always saying now, "what do I do?" Why can't I just do what I did before? I used to always be active, always dancing, always going to the gym, never eating too much. Is something wrong deep inside? Is something bothering me? I don't know. I lay in bed at night and think about it a lot. Am I stress eating? No, I'm on vacation. Am I sad eating? Why would I be sad? I'm too lazy to go to the gym. I don't know why. One of the things that makes me lazy is the computer. Too many sites on here that distract. I used to have so much will power. All gone... WHY. I do okay with the eating less thing during the week, except though when I go to Ozzie's house. Eating is okay in his house it seems. I'm pretty immobile when I go to his house too because, well, it's not my house and I don't want to be running around dancing or anything. I also tend to over eat all the time!!! URGH. When it's there, it's there, I eat it. I'm now 40 POUNDS heavier. That's aLOT. HMM...I don't know what to do............................!!!