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i'm very upset. i want to do my school work, and not just do it. i want to do it well, very well. i am torn between being the best student i can possibly be and the best friend/girlfriend i could possibly be. i don't think i can do both very, very well simultaneously. i think this feeling of being totally fucked also comes from living so far away from everything. if i lived down the street from claire would this really be an issue? no, probably not. i am jealous of her because she can have 2 hour conversations with people during the week, no problem. she could even go to a show and see her boyfriend because everything is so central to her. i hate scottsdale so much. not because the people are assholes and i feel like i'm in the middle of nowhere. well, that adds to it, but i hate it mostly because it is the only standing in the way of having everything i want: good grades and a healthy social life.
so i have two options.
a) demand that everyone in my life that i love just leave me alone until the weekends. i don't know if this is possible. but i could certainly try.
b) have both, less grades more people. i don't know how i feel about this option either. i need this last semester to get me into college. it's the deciding factor between ASU and scripps.
that cake cliche is applicable here.
so i have two options.
a) demand that everyone in my life that i love just leave me alone until the weekends. i don't know if this is possible. but i could certainly try.
b) have both, less grades more people. i don't know how i feel about this option either. i need this last semester to get me into college. it's the deciding factor between ASU and scripps.
that cake cliche is applicable here.