So stressed
I dunno how much more stress I can handle. I have a job where they expect us to do everyone else's yet do our own 2. I dunno how it is supposed to be possible. But they still expect it. I need a new job in the new year. I think that will be my resolution. Find a new job. I can't stand it. My sister went overnight now for her job. We were supposed to have girls night before Robin comes home Monday but stupid work called and she had to go in. She was mad cuz she had no days off in between now. Walmart is a horrible company to work for anymore. It used to be nice. Not worth it anymore. The company is terrible. It's all about a profit yet working your people to their death. I will have a heart attack yet. So will my sister.
Very stressed st home. People, sounds easier said than done to get help around Here. I can talk until I'm blue in the face and get no help. My dad does a very small bit of helping. He could do much more or heck keep up with his own house. Nope, he doesn't even do that. I refuse to clean it. I don't have time. I mopped my floors YET AGAIN yesterday which is basically a daily thing for me, plus mounds of dishes, clean up always, mom's pills, bathroom and shower duty....snack at bed. It doesn't sound like much but I work full time as well. I need my space back. I hate living with someone and that stresses me out that I snap. Snapped yesterday and today already. Go for a bagel and my mom ate the whole pack. Not just 1, the whole thing on me. I bought them and got they were the expensive ones yet...and got not 1. I was so mad! It's rude. She knew I had got them for us both...Not just her and she the whole pack. That is shit that makes me mad. Give her dinner and she barely eats at the table. I already gotta run all day at work and most times make supper at their house due to my stove top not working right (old stove). Take her food into her room and never says a word she has no drink....gotta run back into the kitchen. I gotta do everyone's food so I never eat a hot meal. I'm so sick of it.
What really annoys the heck out of me is when your supposed best friends talk amongst one another, you message them and nobody responds to you yet they can talk to one another and you see it. Tired of trying. Hang out alone if you don't want me there but have enough guts tell me it. I seriously hate when I message or text someone and no response. I always respond (May be late sometimes) but I always respond.
My cat keeps shitting all over my house. I've had it. The other day I threw her outside by her neck. She was terrified of me. Felt bad then but I had it. She shit on a bed 5 days in a row. Floors, couch too. After I threw her outside I brought her in cuz I know she'd never survive. She's an inside cat. I threw her in the basement then by her neck like I did outside. I was just so furious with her. I kept her in a basement for a day by herself and then yesterday brought her back up. She has not shit on my floor or anywhere since. We think she's trying to mark her territory because of my mom's cat visiting. If she does it again, basement will be her punishment. Hated doing it but can't trust her. She's been good since. I don't want to get rid of her cuz she's a very friendly kitty just bad.
Christmas is approaching and thanksgiving too. We cannot even celebrate with anyone. My brother has no license or vehicle. My dad and sister work overnight for both holidays. My mom cannot do steps or drive so yea the holidays will be spent just mom and I. I also work thanksgiving every year for 12 hours. This sucks. :'(
I had been talking to some guys online. I don't feel like I click with any of them. Got into a HUGE fight with one of the guys. He is like a depressed schizophrenic so yea...he's gone. He was PSYCHO no lie!!! Hoping I don't spend another year alone. Life is so lonely. I've been depressed for years. Highly thinking of going to the Dr in the new year. I think I need "Happy pills". I don't like being medicated but I think I need something.
Ok enough. Take care peeps.
Very stressed st home. People, sounds easier said than done to get help around Here. I can talk until I'm blue in the face and get no help. My dad does a very small bit of helping. He could do much more or heck keep up with his own house. Nope, he doesn't even do that. I refuse to clean it. I don't have time. I mopped my floors YET AGAIN yesterday which is basically a daily thing for me, plus mounds of dishes, clean up always, mom's pills, bathroom and shower duty....snack at bed. It doesn't sound like much but I work full time as well. I need my space back. I hate living with someone and that stresses me out that I snap. Snapped yesterday and today already. Go for a bagel and my mom ate the whole pack. Not just 1, the whole thing on me. I bought them and got they were the expensive ones yet...and got not 1. I was so mad! It's rude. She knew I had got them for us both...Not just her and she the whole pack. That is shit that makes me mad. Give her dinner and she barely eats at the table. I already gotta run all day at work and most times make supper at their house due to my stove top not working right (old stove). Take her food into her room and never says a word she has no drink....gotta run back into the kitchen. I gotta do everyone's food so I never eat a hot meal. I'm so sick of it.
What really annoys the heck out of me is when your supposed best friends talk amongst one another, you message them and nobody responds to you yet they can talk to one another and you see it. Tired of trying. Hang out alone if you don't want me there but have enough guts tell me it. I seriously hate when I message or text someone and no response. I always respond (May be late sometimes) but I always respond.
My cat keeps shitting all over my house. I've had it. The other day I threw her outside by her neck. She was terrified of me. Felt bad then but I had it. She shit on a bed 5 days in a row. Floors, couch too. After I threw her outside I brought her in cuz I know she'd never survive. She's an inside cat. I threw her in the basement then by her neck like I did outside. I was just so furious with her. I kept her in a basement for a day by herself and then yesterday brought her back up. She has not shit on my floor or anywhere since. We think she's trying to mark her territory because of my mom's cat visiting. If she does it again, basement will be her punishment. Hated doing it but can't trust her. She's been good since. I don't want to get rid of her cuz she's a very friendly kitty just bad.
Christmas is approaching and thanksgiving too. We cannot even celebrate with anyone. My brother has no license or vehicle. My dad and sister work overnight for both holidays. My mom cannot do steps or drive so yea the holidays will be spent just mom and I. I also work thanksgiving every year for 12 hours. This sucks. :'(
I had been talking to some guys online. I don't feel like I click with any of them. Got into a HUGE fight with one of the guys. He is like a depressed schizophrenic so yea...he's gone. He was PSYCHO no lie!!! Hoping I don't spend another year alone. Life is so lonely. I've been depressed for years. Highly thinking of going to the Dr in the new year. I think I need "Happy pills". I don't like being medicated but I think I need something.
Ok enough. Take care peeps.