not much more waiting to be done...
i don't know why i post this. there are small few of you on my journal that are not on someone else's who has already posted the severity of g's condition. his leukemia is incurable and he will be taken off life support sometime tonight. i felt more at peace today after visiting him last night than i have in a long time. though i am still very sad, i am no longer fighting it. no longer in denial, no longer holding on. i am still very sad, but i am no longer heavy with it. he's taught me so much. and i wanted him to teach me so much more. he continued to teach me...even up to yesterday, making me prove to myself that i could face my fears that i could drive to the city alone. that i was stronger than i thought and i could say good bye. there is nothing else i can say.