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My life is going all Gus Van Sant on me.
Yesterday (I think, was it yesterday?) Tiina and I left for a festival in Turku. It was nice, I witnessed one of the best gigs I've ever been to (Ruuu-DOLF!! ei jätä sinuakaan kylmäksi, kyyninen räppivihaaja).
Well. Today I woke up alone in Sanni's apartment, Tiina had disappeared somewhere while I was sleeping. I had dried blood all over my face and chest. That's hot. It was especially tricky to get it off the eyelashes. My condition could be described as a... wreck? I have a strange looking burn in my chest. My nose bleeds at least once an hour, it's quite interesting how I've learned to look at life with my head thrown back all the time. It does look different, the world, from that angle.
I had no idea what to do or where to go, so I just walked around the town for a while. My nose was bleeding, I was feeling sick, I had a hammering headache that's been going on for two days now, I was shaking and the sun was making my eyes ache. After an hour I realised I had no bleeding idea what the hell I was doing there, so I just took a train to Helsinki. Which didn't help at all. I still don't quite understand what happened last night, or today, or, well, during the last ten days.
Reality is becoming a blur. I didn't even have a drink yesterday or anything, it seems I don't need it anymore because my mind has started to play tricks on me without the help of any crap.
I'm also a bit worried about my new hometown. People in Turku are friggin' RUDE. I mean, it's not like the people in Helsinki are famous for their friendliness either, but at least they have some sense of basic manners. In Turku they just walk all over you without even noticing. It's almost funny, that. Except that it isn't. What's funny about treating other people like dirt?
Well, whatever. I think I'm just going to go and eat pie and drink ice tea, and after that I'm going to hop on a plane and fly to Hungary. I hope one of those ill-tempered Hungarian ladies throws something heavy on my head, or a lightning strikes me or something, and when I wake up on a hospital bed everything's clear again.