aftermath
Title: Aftermath
Fandom: The Big Bang Theory
Pairing: Penny/Sheldon
Notes: This mix is not happy. This is a break-up mix. I know, I'm sorry, but I just couldn't get the concept out of my head...
01 Point of Disgust - Low
[They can't deny the chemistry and Penny can't control herself anymore. But she has doubts.]
then, in the dust
all the things
we discussed
were thrown to the wind
so at last
we begin
'cuz we fall hard
we fall fast
mercy me
it'll never last
02 Once Around the Block - Badly Drawn Boy
[The obligatory first-time sex song. And it's great! For awhile...]
You quiver like a candle on fire
I'm putting you out
Maybe tonight we could be the last shout
But I'm fascinated by your style
Your beauty will last for a while
You're feeling instead of being
The more that I live on the inside
There's nothing to give
I'm infatuated by your moves
I've got to search hard for your clues
Trying to outrun your fear
Running to lose
Heart on your sleeve and your soul in your shoes
Take a left,
A sharp left
And another left, meet me on the corner
And we'll start, again.
03 Silent Fighting - Nada Surf
[Until real life kicks them in the ass. The fighting starts, not adorable, sexual-tension-y fighting. Real, malicious fighting.]
Don't know what to do
About me and you
I don't know what to think
I always feel time's running out
It's getting harder
Harder to get a clue
Even when we're quiet fighting
Silent treatment on the street
Still there's no doubt we're going home together
Even when we're silent fighting
Making a scene on the street
We'll be under the covers and out of the weather
I just can't tell the truth
Always thinking 'bout leaving you
04 Foolish - Ra Ra Riot
[They both know it's not going to work out but they don't quite know why.]
There was a light, but I don't care
We both know that it's foolish
And what's become of it is in my heart
Oh, but it's a big part
Oh and I won't waste any more of your time
Oh and I won't waste any more time
I don't know myself
But I know you
How can you be so callous?
Don't ever say that I wasn't being fair
Or that you don't rely on me when no one else is there anymore
05 Merry Happy - Kate Nash
[Penny knows Sheldon will never give up, he's too stubborn, so she ends it for him.]
Gave me those pearls and I thought they were ugly
Though you try to tell me that you never loved me
I know that you did
'Cause you said it and you wrote it down
Dancing at discos
Eating cheese on toast
Yeah you make me merry make me very very happy
But you obviously, you didn't want to stick around
So I learned from you
06 Exit Stage Right - Badly Drawn Boy
Instrumental
07 Ain't Too Sad - Just Jack
[Sheldon is fine with the break-up, completely fine.]
She never said that she was going
And now I can't believe it's true
She could have left a note or something
Before she passed on through
Now there's a hole where she used to be
But I guess it's for the best
Now that my woman's out of here
I can concentrate on the rest
We had good times and we had bad
And sometimes, sometimes she made me mad
I ain't too sad you're gone
Well you said I would not need you
And now I ain't too glad you're wrong
So why am I crying all the time?
Feels like I'm dying all the time.
08 He Wasn't There - Lily Allen
[He was a bad boyfriend, but that doesn't mean Penny regrets the experience. And she totally has no hard feelings. Right.]
I'm so pleased I never gave up on him
Oh, well you wouldn't believe some of the things that he did
And everyone said you have to give him some time
And I'm glad that I gave it to him 'cause now everything's fine
I know you wouldn't but there is no need
No need to apologize
Because I know you'll always love me very much
You are my hero in disguise
And just in case you ever thought I would
I wouldn't change you for the world
Because I know you'll always love me very much
I'll always be your little girl
09 Bad Best Friend - Nada Surf
[They dated for awhile but they were best friends first. And that doesn't just go away.]
I only wanna say things that are pure: now I won't be talking anymore
I only wanna do things that are true. Every time i move i'm hurting you
I wanna know what is it that you do to keep from hurting anyone but you?
Cause I still say your name when I don't feel right, just like I used to
And if most people fade to gray and black, you'll fade to light blue
I think too much and then start talking mean
Where did i get all these selfish genes?
Best friends, i'm a bad best friend
I'll meet you today when no-one is watching
10 Trying to Put Your Heart Back Together - Slow Runner
[Day by day, little by little, it'll go back to normal. And this will all just be a failed experiment.]
Watch the snow fall
Make some phone calls
Spend your whole life
Trying to put your heart back
Trying to put your heart back together
You go out dancing
With the beautiful and handsome
Spend the whole night
Trying to put your heart back
Trying to put your heart back together
Where’d the day go?
Out the window
Through the meadow
Down a wormhole
Each day you draw a new line
This is the last time
This is the last time
Trying to put your heart back
Trying to put your heart back together
zip!