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i feel like, i was supposed to do something really great. i was supposed to make something really awesome. but all i did, was stick around marysville, working dead-end job after dead-end job, rewarding myself with alcohol, and living like a song on repeat.
it feels like i'm too late. i missed the train. and the bus. and the boat. and it's too long of a walk.
SIGH.
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i haven't had a good conversation in so long. lately, i'm just a sounding board to people. they vent, they brag, they bitch, they regurgitate useless facts. they never want to have a solid conversation. i think its a good source of inspiration, sometimes. and inspiration is another thing i'm having a hard time locating. a lot of things ending in TION, actually. direction, motivation, uh... nevermind, i guess that's it.
it feels like i'm too late. i missed the train. and the bus. and the boat. and it's too long of a walk.
SIGH.
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i haven't had a good conversation in so long. lately, i'm just a sounding board to people. they vent, they brag, they bitch, they regurgitate useless facts. they never want to have a solid conversation. i think its a good source of inspiration, sometimes. and inspiration is another thing i'm having a hard time locating. a lot of things ending in TION, actually. direction, motivation, uh... nevermind, i guess that's it.