I HATE HATE HATE BREAKDOWNS.
ugh..
so i am having yet another major breakdown.
for the 6th day ina row.
ughh.....
i hate this.
im always used to being happy.
now everything bad i ahve done in my past
is all back in my face now.
and its sooo hard ot make it thru each day!
i hate it i hate it i hate it.
&& the only one i can really tlak to about everything
is grounded and cant go ont he comp or phone ro anywhere
and its my boyfriend and im so depressed
and worried abouyt him.
i havent talked to him in over likea week
and its making me more depressed.
but like i always do i hide my pain.
so noone knows im hurting soo bad inside. :/
i dont kwno why i do it it sucks so bad.
i also hate hate hate that.
and i dont know why im like pouring myself out here now.
but it releaves a bgit of everyhting
that is on my back today and for the past otehr 5 days.
but ughhh... id ont knwo what to do.
ill just hide my pain again like always.
sory for wasting your time.
if you evne took it to read this whole thing.
leave a comment or seomthign if you relali feel like it
you dont have to im not asking anythign of you!
or what else. i dont kwno.
im jsut at aloss of words
and id ont kwnow aht to do but just sit here
and cry abotu everything.
it some how lets out my pain.
and if you realli do car about me and read
this whoel waste of time bulletin
[dont worry im not going to do anythign stupid]
such as cutting myeslf or sucicide or anything along thsoe lines.
but yeha. again
sorry for wasting you time with this.
it doenst mena anything.
:(
so i am having yet another major breakdown.
for the 6th day ina row.
ughh.....
i hate this.
im always used to being happy.
now everything bad i ahve done in my past
is all back in my face now.
and its sooo hard ot make it thru each day!
i hate it i hate it i hate it.
&& the only one i can really tlak to about everything
is grounded and cant go ont he comp or phone ro anywhere
and its my boyfriend and im so depressed
and worried abouyt him.
i havent talked to him in over likea week
and its making me more depressed.
but like i always do i hide my pain.
so noone knows im hurting soo bad inside. :/
i dont kwno why i do it it sucks so bad.
i also hate hate hate that.
and i dont know why im like pouring myself out here now.
but it releaves a bgit of everyhting
that is on my back today and for the past otehr 5 days.
but ughhh... id ont knwo what to do.
ill just hide my pain again like always.
sory for wasting your time.
if you evne took it to read this whole thing.
leave a comment or seomthign if you relali feel like it
you dont have to im not asking anythign of you!
or what else. i dont kwno.
im jsut at aloss of words
and id ont kwnow aht to do but just sit here
and cry abotu everything.
it some how lets out my pain.
and if you realli do car about me and read
this whoel waste of time bulletin
[dont worry im not going to do anythign stupid]
such as cutting myeslf or sucicide or anything along thsoe lines.
but yeha. again
sorry for wasting you time with this.
it doenst mena anything.
:(