Today
Wow, I woke up today with an insane headache and congestion. I got something so now I'm sick and that sucks. Last night a bunch of stuff hit me and I cried which I haven't done in a while. Today was pretty much horrible with crushes and being rejected and all that stuff. Especially when it seems so close but what can I do? Absolutely nothing but move on. All I want to do is make someone happy, but so far no one wants what I have to offer so it pretty much makes me feel like shit. The emotional stuff made the physical sickness a lot worse it seemed. I rested on the couch and watched Karate Kid on AMC, it was awesome. I talked with my best friend Jerred. He is going to help me with reading the Bible and help me through it. I really want to learn, I want to have a guide to live a better life. I'm just not the kind of person that takes to religion quickly just because its pretty much all concepts of humanity's intrepritations on something. Watch the news, understand how stupid the human race is, realize why I don't easily trust what people say. But it will be an awesome learning experience and really help me through these times when I feel my life has no purpose. Jerred said that to make someone else happy, I need to be completely content and happy with my own stuff first, he is probably right, and he should know. Kaycee and Britney called me to tell me they loved me and to get better. I have the best friends ever, I love them so much. I should probably get some rest though here because I need to over this sickness as I have a test tomorrow and a midterm wednesday, as well as a huge ass paper due thursday that I haven't started. I wish school would stop. I need to work more because I need more money to pay for my car and insurance and my phone. Well yeah, i'm done here.