i really should listen to people more often
people are disappointing. I need to get used to that one day. i mean i disappoint people, they disappoint me, and disappointment is a pretty sucky feeling.
I can't tell you how many times i've heard... "Kristina, you could really find someone better for you. You're better than that." I choose not to think that way though. I hate thinking i'm smarter, or prettier, or more mature, or more spiritual or whatever else. I think it's judgmental and condescending toward other people. But i've started to understand what people mean when they say this to me. I've been told i deserve better... i don't think i deserve anything but when crap happens i've got to deserve something better than this. maybe one day God will bless me with this "better" person. man, that will be a good day.
I can't tell you how many times i've heard... "Kristina, you could really find someone better for you. You're better than that." I choose not to think that way though. I hate thinking i'm smarter, or prettier, or more mature, or more spiritual or whatever else. I think it's judgmental and condescending toward other people. But i've started to understand what people mean when they say this to me. I've been told i deserve better... i don't think i deserve anything but when crap happens i've got to deserve something better than this. maybe one day God will bless me with this "better" person. man, that will be a good day.