love heals when you feel like you can't go on ♥.
This is what is going on::
To not get into un-needed drama, no names will be used.
So, I officially feel like everything that's going wrong is my fault. Everybody is telling me I shouldn't feel like that but I do. So, my "friend" KNOWS I like someone, he happens to be her ex boyfriend, which is not my fault.. at all. So she gives me the OK to tell him how I feel and see what happens, she was all for it, because she was "SOO OVER IT" and she supposedly didn't care at all. The first thing she said was "OH I'M GLAD HE'S GETTING OVER ME, I'M HAPPY" and that's a direct quote thank you! Anyway, last night she called before she came over and was like "___ CAME, GOOD! I'M GLAD HE CAME FOR YOU!" and then she comes over and acts all pouty because I was sitting with him and what-not. When everybody left I talked to her to make sure she was okay and she was like "I love you, I don't love him anymore, I'm over it, I'm happy etc. etc." So, I called *____* today to tell him a bunch of stuff and I mentioned something she had said about him, and he was upset, which anyone would be. He called her, and she acted like I was a liar, a major one! Anybody who knows me [MISS CHRISTINA MULE` ♥] would know I'm not a liar. I was looking out for him and the things that were being said about him. She threw a fit about it and she's trying to make it seem like I'm a horrible person. The best part is that she was all for whatever was going on until she realized that nobody else liked her, when she realized he was over her, and nobody else wanted her, she flipped out. She decided to act like a 4 year old about it, knowing that she's the one who said it was okay! And I have witnesses about that one, but I'm sure she will still deny it.
Ugh, what hurt's the most is that he doesn't believe me, even though she's hurt him in the past, and I wish he would trust me because I wouldn't do anything to hurt him, and I would never lie to him. When I was talking to him, I was trying so hard not to cry, and then he hung up and I cried for a while, and I talked to Christina about it because she know's me better then mostly anybody, because we're wifey's.
I just feel so crappy, and I didn't do anything wrong. All I did was tell the truth, I wasn't starting, or competing, or being dramatic, I was just trying to look out for people. I feel like complete crap, and not only did I loose any chance of getting closer to him, but I think I lost him as a friend.
I just wish my "friend" would grow up, and realize she can't play with people like a yo-yo and want them and then not want them, because it's messed up. Especially turning it around to make it seem like it's me whos the kiniving one, when it's not.
I hope he realizes that he means a lot to me, and I would never lie to him =/
♥.
To not get into un-needed drama, no names will be used.
So, I officially feel like everything that's going wrong is my fault. Everybody is telling me I shouldn't feel like that but I do. So, my "friend" KNOWS I like someone, he happens to be her ex boyfriend, which is not my fault.. at all. So she gives me the OK to tell him how I feel and see what happens, she was all for it, because she was "SOO OVER IT" and she supposedly didn't care at all. The first thing she said was "OH I'M GLAD HE'S GETTING OVER ME, I'M HAPPY" and that's a direct quote thank you! Anyway, last night she called before she came over and was like "___ CAME, GOOD! I'M GLAD HE CAME FOR YOU!" and then she comes over and acts all pouty because I was sitting with him and what-not. When everybody left I talked to her to make sure she was okay and she was like "I love you, I don't love him anymore, I'm over it, I'm happy etc. etc." So, I called *____* today to tell him a bunch of stuff and I mentioned something she had said about him, and he was upset, which anyone would be. He called her, and she acted like I was a liar, a major one! Anybody who knows me [MISS CHRISTINA MULE` ♥] would know I'm not a liar. I was looking out for him and the things that were being said about him. She threw a fit about it and she's trying to make it seem like I'm a horrible person. The best part is that she was all for whatever was going on until she realized that nobody else liked her, when she realized he was over her, and nobody else wanted her, she flipped out. She decided to act like a 4 year old about it, knowing that she's the one who said it was okay! And I have witnesses about that one, but I'm sure she will still deny it.
Ugh, what hurt's the most is that he doesn't believe me, even though she's hurt him in the past, and I wish he would trust me because I wouldn't do anything to hurt him, and I would never lie to him. When I was talking to him, I was trying so hard not to cry, and then he hung up and I cried for a while, and I talked to Christina about it because she know's me better then mostly anybody, because we're wifey's.
I just feel so crappy, and I didn't do anything wrong. All I did was tell the truth, I wasn't starting, or competing, or being dramatic, I was just trying to look out for people. I feel like complete crap, and not only did I loose any chance of getting closer to him, but I think I lost him as a friend.
I just wish my "friend" would grow up, and realize she can't play with people like a yo-yo and want them and then not want them, because it's messed up. Especially turning it around to make it seem like it's me whos the kiniving one, when it's not.
I hope he realizes that he means a lot to me, and I would never lie to him =/
♥.