BAH!
Hey hey
I am slowly going crazy! I am getting NO sleep, my writing isn't origional, and I SUCK at physical comedy! I almost cried in class! It was very good learning wise, but once I open that door to perform I choke! I can't believe how scared and how much I don't let my body work when I get in front of my class like that. It's soo annoying. I know my class doesn't care, and they want to support me, but I just start thinking too much and it comes off as fake! My teacher worked with me for like, 15min infront of my class and I was getting so frusterated I wanted to cry because I couldn't let myself go.
What he got me to do was to make a noise when I breathe and when I did you could tell I was tensed and he tried to let everything go and a guy in my class said something and I was like "quiet you" and my teach was like "yes, yell at him! go for it!" and I let out a HUGE scream right at him and he made me do it 5 more times and much louder and longer. It felt soooo good but I felt like a huge ass!
Then I worked on my clown during that 15 min and I was working on my physical side and my voice and it was so hard to present my "invention" (especially when it wasn't working) and then I was thinking and I lost it all so I got frusterated, threw my invention and walked out. I was still in "character" but I sucked ass. My teach talked to me after class and I almost tried again. I told him I was scared and he kept asking what scared me and just him asking me that scared me. I didn't want to know what scared me. It's so ironic that I'm stoping myself letting go because I'm afraid I wont be funny. But me doing that is making me NOT funny. ITS SOOO HARD!!
But I have to fail to succeed. Oh god...
I am slowly going crazy! I am getting NO sleep, my writing isn't origional, and I SUCK at physical comedy! I almost cried in class! It was very good learning wise, but once I open that door to perform I choke! I can't believe how scared and how much I don't let my body work when I get in front of my class like that. It's soo annoying. I know my class doesn't care, and they want to support me, but I just start thinking too much and it comes off as fake! My teacher worked with me for like, 15min infront of my class and I was getting so frusterated I wanted to cry because I couldn't let myself go.
What he got me to do was to make a noise when I breathe and when I did you could tell I was tensed and he tried to let everything go and a guy in my class said something and I was like "quiet you" and my teach was like "yes, yell at him! go for it!" and I let out a HUGE scream right at him and he made me do it 5 more times and much louder and longer. It felt soooo good but I felt like a huge ass!
Then I worked on my clown during that 15 min and I was working on my physical side and my voice and it was so hard to present my "invention" (especially when it wasn't working) and then I was thinking and I lost it all so I got frusterated, threw my invention and walked out. I was still in "character" but I sucked ass. My teach talked to me after class and I almost tried again. I told him I was scared and he kept asking what scared me and just him asking me that scared me. I didn't want to know what scared me. It's so ironic that I'm stoping myself letting go because I'm afraid I wont be funny. But me doing that is making me NOT funny. ITS SOOO HARD!!
But I have to fail to succeed. Oh god...