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Okay so I've spent the last week trying to figure out what the hell I'm doing with my life. I haven't been going to classes and I think it's because I just don't want to be there. I've been getting so stressed out and just not been able to motivate myself to do the work. I'm not enjoying the work and it's making me not want to draw, which is not good. I think it also has a lot to do with me completely changing my mind about what I want to do in the future.
I want to be an illustrator.
Realistically, i know it's hard to make a living as an illustrator and I definitely need some graphic design skills to back me too. I've looked into some other colleges that offer design degrees and there's one in particular that incorporates traditional and computer media, which I'm really interested in. Or, I can apply to uni for my bachelor of fine arts next year as a mature age student and my ranking from high school doesn't count (the reason I'm at TAFE and not uni is to raise my marks). My dad's also going to talk to some people in the media industry who knows and see if they know of anything.
In the meantime, my dad has tentatively offered me a job at his advertising agency doing some graphics work and stuff, where he'll teach me.
I'm trying to fight the thoughts in the back of my head telling me I'm a failure, because I've already dropped out of this course once before and returned ( I previously dropped out because I had a bit of a breakdown). But maybe it's just not right for me. I was enjoying it last semester, but this semester I just can't make myself want to do the work. I worry that I'm just taking the easy way out and not coping and that I'll regret my decision in 6 months. I just want to do what's right for me.
This is a really tough decision and I just don't want to make the wrong choice. I had to write all this out to try and make sense of it and maybe get some different input.
I want to be an illustrator.
Realistically, i know it's hard to make a living as an illustrator and I definitely need some graphic design skills to back me too. I've looked into some other colleges that offer design degrees and there's one in particular that incorporates traditional and computer media, which I'm really interested in. Or, I can apply to uni for my bachelor of fine arts next year as a mature age student and my ranking from high school doesn't count (the reason I'm at TAFE and not uni is to raise my marks). My dad's also going to talk to some people in the media industry who knows and see if they know of anything.
In the meantime, my dad has tentatively offered me a job at his advertising agency doing some graphics work and stuff, where he'll teach me.
I'm trying to fight the thoughts in the back of my head telling me I'm a failure, because I've already dropped out of this course once before and returned ( I previously dropped out because I had a bit of a breakdown). But maybe it's just not right for me. I was enjoying it last semester, but this semester I just can't make myself want to do the work. I worry that I'm just taking the easy way out and not coping and that I'll regret my decision in 6 months. I just want to do what's right for me.
This is a really tough decision and I just don't want to make the wrong choice. I had to write all this out to try and make sense of it and maybe get some different input.