Yesterday's post...ran out of internet credit last night
So, as loosely detailed in the last post...I'm not well. I really don't want to go into the details of the weekend or past few weeks but basically, they've involved a lot of crying, screaming, hitting myself, fighting with josh and hitting him out of frustration because he doesn't understand why i get so hysterical over little things.
I saw my GP this morning because I freaked out yet again about going to work. She patronised me and treated me like a fucking stupid little kid. Basically just lectured me about not taking my medication and working too much and how they'd never admit me to hospital blah blah. I didn't expect to be admitted to hospital for fucks sake. But she didn't even ask if I was safe! And she KNOWS I self harm. Then I stayed at mums all day. She wanted me to stay there tonight but I convinced her I'd feel better at home where I have all my stuff.
Anyway, I'm taking time off work and am going to go on sickness benefits for a month or two to get myself back on track.
In others news, I've officially moved downstairs now. I'm all set up except my bed will eventually move to the other room which needs to be painted.
Pictures!
Please excuse how crappy i look and consider i've been to depressed to wash/dye my hair or apply makeup and spent the last few days crying/beating myself. bleh
New kitten toy my sister bought me to cheer me up
Awww, aren't we cute....
My bed looking all pretty with my new doona cover and cushions
My cute little bathroom
My kitchen. it's very dark but there's a fridge and microwave at the back
I have a pink toaster! I also have a pink and kettle and pink saucepans :)
My living room. and ugly couches that really need covers
So, that was le grande tour.
I saw my GP this morning because I freaked out yet again about going to work. She patronised me and treated me like a fucking stupid little kid. Basically just lectured me about not taking my medication and working too much and how they'd never admit me to hospital blah blah. I didn't expect to be admitted to hospital for fucks sake. But she didn't even ask if I was safe! And she KNOWS I self harm. Then I stayed at mums all day. She wanted me to stay there tonight but I convinced her I'd feel better at home where I have all my stuff.
Anyway, I'm taking time off work and am going to go on sickness benefits for a month or two to get myself back on track.
In others news, I've officially moved downstairs now. I'm all set up except my bed will eventually move to the other room which needs to be painted.
Pictures!
Please excuse how crappy i look and consider i've been to depressed to wash/dye my hair or apply makeup and spent the last few days crying/beating myself. bleh
New kitten toy my sister bought me to cheer me up
Awww, aren't we cute....
My bed looking all pretty with my new doona cover and cushions
My cute little bathroom
My kitchen. it's very dark but there's a fridge and microwave at the back
I have a pink toaster! I also have a pink and kettle and pink saucepans :)
My living room. and ugly couches that really need covers
So, that was le grande tour.