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i think sometimes i put too much trust, and too much faith into people. i also think i try to be there for them too much, even if that isn't what they need. i'm sick of my heart being stomped on every single time i try to give it away. tyler is what i need right now. i feel so incredibly comfortable with him. i need comfort. i need it when my world is spinning out of control. i'm sick of waking up to no cute text message. and i'm sick of staying online all day waiting for him to IM me. i guess it's over. i guess he really doesn't want me. i feel decepted. i feel worthless. this is why i need to stay away from boys. after the relationship is said and done, i end up feeling like everything i did was wrong. why do i do everything wrong? why can't he want me too? why can't i find any other boy attractive? i don't even feel like touching another person because all i can think about is how he held my hand or how he whispered things before he'd kiss me. this is so screwed up. i didn't even love him. why did he break up with me?