im dressed up for free drinks

[disaster_____]

this is my life right
well I want things to be done the way I'd like them to be done
fix the things that I feel the need for fixing myself
not care so much what people think again
but there's something in my mind that likes to argue with me
its like the little devil on my shoulder telling me I could never do this
or don't believe in this
maybe i'm crazy because it may not make sense to you
because you and I don't think alike
all i know is that there are things that I want to achieve without this "little devil" on the side of my shoulder or in my head
I want it to leave me alone
let me get the things I want to get done and achieve
to make myself happy
maybe ive skipped some things to get to this
sometimes I feel like a closed flower not wanting to open at all