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Bleeeeeeeeeeh. The thing is, stats are useful and it's cool that you can find out SO MUCH INFORMATION using only like three numbers (... if you pretend the mean is one number), and stuff, I don't even know, the normal distribution still seems like it works because of ~magic~ to me, but like, man. Bla bla bla use this proof to do another proof, is not going to be useful at any point in time ANY POINT IN TIME for me. I thought that I was all unmotivated this semester, but then I realized that really it's just that I'm doing such incredibly boring classes. I'm actually just like a superhero for getting through this shit.
It's rainy today and I'm kind of sleepy, but not quite as cranky as I was at the start of the semester, so that's good. A few days ago, there was a guy sitting beside me and he was making this pah pah pah noise with his mouth. At first I thought he was eating (he was sitting beside me, but back further in his chair, if that makes sense, so I couldn't see him without turning around.) but his hands didn't seem to be moving, so then I was sure that he was sitting there blowing SPIT BUBBLES, IT WAS SO FUCKING GROSS OMG. I spent a lot of time cringing and picturing myself punching him in the face. Then I realized that you don't want to touch the face of someone who is blowing spit bubbles, so instead I pictured myself bludgeoning him with my clipboard. It was a long class, let me tell you. By the end I figured out that he was chewing gum.
I guess the moral of this story is that when you were a child and adults told you not to chew gum, and you thought, WTF? Why can't I chew gum?? This is why. This. Is the reason why.
Every single post (I exaggerate) on my flist is about that Honesty Meme. I looked at it and actually spent about three seconds wondering if I should do it before I mentally slapped the shit out of myself. I've got to say that the most useful thing to learn is how to slap the shit out of your brain when you think stupid things. I haven't fully developed this skill yet, but I'm working on it. Like sometimes I think, wow, I really want to shove that guy's pen up his nose, but then I don't. Or, OMG, kittens in the petstore!!! I bet I could stuff one down my shirt and no one would even notice me sneaking away, but then I remember that the kitten might not be declawed and so that could be potentially painful.
However, the other day (yesterday) I was drinking ice water and I thought, I really want to dampen my scalp and I tried to trickle some of the water out of the glass onto my head, but it ended up getting anywhere and then I was soaked with ice water and friggen freezing all night long. So I guess that wasn't too much of a good idea.
It's a process.
Anyway, honesty meme. I'm not too sure what the point of that is, since it's very easy to find people on the internet who hate you. Is it really necessary to invite more? Someone hates you and-- What are you supposed to do with that? Mould the knowledge that there is someone who wishes you badly into a ball and hold it close to your heart?
There is certainly a lot of anger and frustration in fandom, which sucks because fandom is supposed to be fun. I kind of think that instead of just having the opportunity to hear that someone is irritated by your continuing existence, it would be more useful if there was a meme where you could ... clear up things. I don't know what to call it.
Instead of saying DO YOU KNOW THAT I HATE YOU? BECAUSE I DO. You could say, THIS ONE THING THAT YOU SAID WAS REALLY OFFENCIVE TO ME. or I WAS HURT WHEN YOU DIDN'T REPLY TO MY COMMENT. or WHEN YOU SAID THAT NO ONE SHOULD WRITE SPENCER/BRENDON, IT FELT LIKE A PERSONAL INSULT. or whatever, I dunno.
And then the person could say, I AM SORRY, I DIDN'T MEAN IT TO SOUND LIKE THAT. or I WAS TOTALLY DRUNK THAT NIGHT AND JUST FORGOT TO REPLY. or THAT'S BECAUSE YOU'RE A SHITTY WRITER, I MEANT IT TO SOUND LIKE THAT. And then you would actually clear the air.
Anyway, if I've done something hurtful or offencive you can totally tell me and then I will apologize or try to explain what I meant or whatever. You can even comment anonymously if you want to.
It's rainy today and I'm kind of sleepy, but not quite as cranky as I was at the start of the semester, so that's good. A few days ago, there was a guy sitting beside me and he was making this pah pah pah noise with his mouth. At first I thought he was eating (he was sitting beside me, but back further in his chair, if that makes sense, so I couldn't see him without turning around.) but his hands didn't seem to be moving, so then I was sure that he was sitting there blowing SPIT BUBBLES, IT WAS SO FUCKING GROSS OMG. I spent a lot of time cringing and picturing myself punching him in the face. Then I realized that you don't want to touch the face of someone who is blowing spit bubbles, so instead I pictured myself bludgeoning him with my clipboard. It was a long class, let me tell you. By the end I figured out that he was chewing gum.
I guess the moral of this story is that when you were a child and adults told you not to chew gum, and you thought, WTF? Why can't I chew gum?? This is why. This. Is the reason why.
Every single post (I exaggerate) on my flist is about that Honesty Meme. I looked at it and actually spent about three seconds wondering if I should do it before I mentally slapped the shit out of myself. I've got to say that the most useful thing to learn is how to slap the shit out of your brain when you think stupid things. I haven't fully developed this skill yet, but I'm working on it. Like sometimes I think, wow, I really want to shove that guy's pen up his nose, but then I don't. Or, OMG, kittens in the petstore!!! I bet I could stuff one down my shirt and no one would even notice me sneaking away, but then I remember that the kitten might not be declawed and so that could be potentially painful.
However, the other day (yesterday) I was drinking ice water and I thought, I really want to dampen my scalp and I tried to trickle some of the water out of the glass onto my head, but it ended up getting anywhere and then I was soaked with ice water and friggen freezing all night long. So I guess that wasn't too much of a good idea.
It's a process.
Anyway, honesty meme. I'm not too sure what the point of that is, since it's very easy to find people on the internet who hate you. Is it really necessary to invite more? Someone hates you and-- What are you supposed to do with that? Mould the knowledge that there is someone who wishes you badly into a ball and hold it close to your heart?
There is certainly a lot of anger and frustration in fandom, which sucks because fandom is supposed to be fun. I kind of think that instead of just having the opportunity to hear that someone is irritated by your continuing existence, it would be more useful if there was a meme where you could ... clear up things. I don't know what to call it.
Instead of saying DO YOU KNOW THAT I HATE YOU? BECAUSE I DO. You could say, THIS ONE THING THAT YOU SAID WAS REALLY OFFENCIVE TO ME. or I WAS HURT WHEN YOU DIDN'T REPLY TO MY COMMENT. or WHEN YOU SAID THAT NO ONE SHOULD WRITE SPENCER/BRENDON, IT FELT LIKE A PERSONAL INSULT. or whatever, I dunno.
And then the person could say, I AM SORRY, I DIDN'T MEAN IT TO SOUND LIKE THAT. or I WAS TOTALLY DRUNK THAT NIGHT AND JUST FORGOT TO REPLY. or THAT'S BECAUSE YOU'RE A SHITTY WRITER, I MEANT IT TO SOUND LIKE THAT. And then you would actually clear the air.
Anyway, if I've done something hurtful or offencive you can totally tell me and then I will apologize or try to explain what I meant or whatever. You can even comment anonymously if you want to.