OMG I LOVE HIM
January 12th, 2005
03:48 pm: after a couple of errors i have this to say...
After a couple of errors i have this to say...
On February 14, 2004, I embarked upon a relationship with Christina which I never thought we would take this far. Now what is soon to be a year later, I’ve fell head over heals in love with her. It was on a Saturday which I’ll never forget. I’ll always remember our first kiss. She was sitting on my right side in the movie theatre and I started to play with her hand. Then I leaned in and gave her a kiss on the cheek and out of the corner of my eye I saw her smile. Right then and there I knew I wanted to make her smile for the rest of my life. At that time I didn’t know we would be together for this long, but I knew she had a beautiful smile and it was one that I would always want to see, and one that I would want to be responsible for. Soon thereafter, I kissed her on the lips and was consumed with butterflies for the first time in my life. It was a magical feeling like no other. I didn’t know if I was breath taken by the kiss or I had to take a shit. All I knew was that I liked it and I wanted more. And I didn’t care who had to say what about it. At this point nobody’s opinions mattered. Cuz I knew that I wanted her and only her. My first kiss with her is one of my most memorable moments with her. I’m so lucky to have a girlfriend such as her. I mean I would be lost in every sense of the word with out her. She is there for me through it all.
Everybody knows or should know that from time to time I can go on my lil rampage of fury and become the biggest drama queen ever…. If I get mad or stressed enough, sometimes I just have to vent and just say any and everything just to get all my emotions out. Some people are use to it, some know how I feel and can relate, others found out the hard way am I am sorry to have to put people through that. Don’t get me wrong sometime people deserve it but in this particular case that I am talking about this person who I affected and hurt happens to mean the most to me in the world. I said a lot of stupid stuff and a lot of hurtful things. I didn’t tell the whole story and I portrayed her to be mean and even called her mean things. However I did not mean any of it. Regardless of how many bad things I say about my girlfriend (which I know is not right) I do love her with all my heart and have remorse for several days now. I have deleted the hurtful post which a lot of you saw and I am trying to put it past myself due to the fact that it was written in my most angry hurtful stressed out stage. I’m very sorry for what I’ve done…. Next time I have a problem or am stress to that level I will settle it in a different fashion.
I’m so lucky to have a girlfriend who is understanding and reasonable enough to understand exactly what I was going through and forgive me through all of this. I actually feel bad for my friends who are not as honored as I am to be blessed with such a wonderful, beautiful, caring, girlfriend; A girlfriend who will do, and has done everything in her power to make me happy and make our relationship work. Even the little things that she does like pick me up from work, or even take care of me and buy me soup when I am sick, or go through the hassle of x mas shopping for the pickiest person ever, and deal with my massive amount of female friends, and even kissing my feet…tehe :-). How could anybody not be in love with someone like that? I know I am.
I’m gonna have a live journal wedding with her…lmfao.
Hope this entry means as much to you as it does to me... :-/
Current Mood: LOVE
Current Music: Take a chance you stupid ho!
03:48 pm: after a couple of errors i have this to say...
After a couple of errors i have this to say...
On February 14, 2004, I embarked upon a relationship with Christina which I never thought we would take this far. Now what is soon to be a year later, I’ve fell head over heals in love with her. It was on a Saturday which I’ll never forget. I’ll always remember our first kiss. She was sitting on my right side in the movie theatre and I started to play with her hand. Then I leaned in and gave her a kiss on the cheek and out of the corner of my eye I saw her smile. Right then and there I knew I wanted to make her smile for the rest of my life. At that time I didn’t know we would be together for this long, but I knew she had a beautiful smile and it was one that I would always want to see, and one that I would want to be responsible for. Soon thereafter, I kissed her on the lips and was consumed with butterflies for the first time in my life. It was a magical feeling like no other. I didn’t know if I was breath taken by the kiss or I had to take a shit. All I knew was that I liked it and I wanted more. And I didn’t care who had to say what about it. At this point nobody’s opinions mattered. Cuz I knew that I wanted her and only her. My first kiss with her is one of my most memorable moments with her. I’m so lucky to have a girlfriend such as her. I mean I would be lost in every sense of the word with out her. She is there for me through it all.
Everybody knows or should know that from time to time I can go on my lil rampage of fury and become the biggest drama queen ever…. If I get mad or stressed enough, sometimes I just have to vent and just say any and everything just to get all my emotions out. Some people are use to it, some know how I feel and can relate, others found out the hard way am I am sorry to have to put people through that. Don’t get me wrong sometime people deserve it but in this particular case that I am talking about this person who I affected and hurt happens to mean the most to me in the world. I said a lot of stupid stuff and a lot of hurtful things. I didn’t tell the whole story and I portrayed her to be mean and even called her mean things. However I did not mean any of it. Regardless of how many bad things I say about my girlfriend (which I know is not right) I do love her with all my heart and have remorse for several days now. I have deleted the hurtful post which a lot of you saw and I am trying to put it past myself due to the fact that it was written in my most angry hurtful stressed out stage. I’m very sorry for what I’ve done…. Next time I have a problem or am stress to that level I will settle it in a different fashion.
I’m so lucky to have a girlfriend who is understanding and reasonable enough to understand exactly what I was going through and forgive me through all of this. I actually feel bad for my friends who are not as honored as I am to be blessed with such a wonderful, beautiful, caring, girlfriend; A girlfriend who will do, and has done everything in her power to make me happy and make our relationship work. Even the little things that she does like pick me up from work, or even take care of me and buy me soup when I am sick, or go through the hassle of x mas shopping for the pickiest person ever, and deal with my massive amount of female friends, and even kissing my feet…tehe :-). How could anybody not be in love with someone like that? I know I am.
I’m gonna have a live journal wedding with her…lmfao.
Hope this entry means as much to you as it does to me... :-/
Current Mood: LOVE
Current Music: Take a chance you stupid ho!