Moan
Okay this is a big, fat moan.
My life is shit. Here are the problems:
a) Today I failed my driving test. The frustrating thing is that I completely fell apart and I can drive. I'm totally ready to drive. I can do it. But, I just choked when it came to the test. Now, I can't have another test for another 6 weeks, its going to cost me another £55.50 to take it, as well as paying for more driving lessons. I'm so annoyed with myself for just being rubbish.
b) My job. I started a new job as a receptionist last Monday. What am I doing? I've got a degree! I should be doing a good job, not stupid admin work. The fact is that so many people have degrees nowadays that it doesn't mean anything. It doesn't set you apart. And it seems like I'm not good enough for anyone. I've been rejected for so many graduate jobs that I've lost count. So I lowered my standards and aimed for a marketing assistant job, and an event coordinator job, and a few others like that. I was rejected by them as well. The fact is that receptionist work is the only thing that I can get a job for. Its frustrating. I can do more than that, I need to do more than that, but no one will give me a chance.
c) I'm still living with my parents. Yes, I'm only 21 and that is still quite young, but I'm getting sick of it. I feel like a child. I'm desperate to become more like an adult. Because I've not got a well-paying or even permenant job I can't afford to rent or buy my own place.
d) I've got no social life. Maybe once a fortnight I go to the cinema and thats it.
e) I'm bored. Life is boring. I want something to wake me up, and get me interested again. I need something to stick my teeth into.
f) It seems as though everyone around me is moving forward, while I'm just treading water.
God, I'm such a moaner. I'm healthy (relatively), I've got a good family, no one close to me is ill or anything, the people at my new job is ok, I've got a few good friends, and I've got a working internet connection. I shouldn't be moaning but its always the bad things we focus on, not the good. Maybe I should get some perspective.
My life is shit. Here are the problems:
a) Today I failed my driving test. The frustrating thing is that I completely fell apart and I can drive. I'm totally ready to drive. I can do it. But, I just choked when it came to the test. Now, I can't have another test for another 6 weeks, its going to cost me another £55.50 to take it, as well as paying for more driving lessons. I'm so annoyed with myself for just being rubbish.
b) My job. I started a new job as a receptionist last Monday. What am I doing? I've got a degree! I should be doing a good job, not stupid admin work. The fact is that so many people have degrees nowadays that it doesn't mean anything. It doesn't set you apart. And it seems like I'm not good enough for anyone. I've been rejected for so many graduate jobs that I've lost count. So I lowered my standards and aimed for a marketing assistant job, and an event coordinator job, and a few others like that. I was rejected by them as well. The fact is that receptionist work is the only thing that I can get a job for. Its frustrating. I can do more than that, I need to do more than that, but no one will give me a chance.
c) I'm still living with my parents. Yes, I'm only 21 and that is still quite young, but I'm getting sick of it. I feel like a child. I'm desperate to become more like an adult. Because I've not got a well-paying or even permenant job I can't afford to rent or buy my own place.
d) I've got no social life. Maybe once a fortnight I go to the cinema and thats it.
e) I'm bored. Life is boring. I want something to wake me up, and get me interested again. I need something to stick my teeth into.
f) It seems as though everyone around me is moving forward, while I'm just treading water.
God, I'm such a moaner. I'm healthy (relatively), I've got a good family, no one close to me is ill or anything, the people at my new job is ok, I've got a few good friends, and I've got a working internet connection. I shouldn't be moaning but its always the bad things we focus on, not the good. Maybe I should get some perspective.