post number twentyfive
here i am almost a week later and im at a new part time job. i do like it and its busy. that is why im on break as i write this. the last week has been horrible for me. i have been having some black clouds hovering over me for a few days now. i am truly sadden by things that have taken place in my life. i am at a lost for words. i am not even sure of what is going on with myself. im really confused of how i feel and i dont know what to do. i have lost my appetite and i have no will to do anything. all i want is to curl into a ball and be left alone. of course that is not possible because of my obligations. i would like to ask for help, but i dont think i am ready just now. im still trying to figure out what my opinion of the situation is and what i want to do. i know what this sounds like, i just need to clear my mind and try to focus on work.
so i have a birthday coming up this weekend, which i will be working on bot sat and sun. sucks, but i need the money. anyway, im not as excited as i was when the year began. i do have faith that it will be okay and that things will turn around.