No reason for this. No reason at all. I just hate myself. I'm worthless. I'm unattractive. I'm stupid. I'm a waste of space. I'm needy. I'm dependent.
Sometimes, I just want to take off alone and find out how long I can make it with NO ONE caring about me or checking on me or anything. Just relying on myself.
I don't think I'd make it very long at

I went over to DBIF's (douchebag idiotface, my ex) house tonight. He still has my high school diploma and a shotgun my grandpa gave me (swear, I wasn't going to use it on him, I just wanted it back). I'd heard rumors that his new girlfriend was living there, but I needed to get my stuff and drop off a couple of his things that I still had, so I ( Read more... )

So, my friend has been ignoring me for a while now. We share a room, but she's never here. I, being the good friend I am still attempt to do things with her when I do see her. Today we went to the dining hall for lunch, she didn't have her ID so I got her lunch. Then, she's got cramps so I got her a water to help with the bloating. Immediately ( Read more... )

Times like this I really feel "defective". When one thing goes wrong and makes me literally spiral into hating everything and everyone and every thought is completely irrational which I also hate. I don't know what to do. I have no idea how to make this better. I always come out of it, obviously, but I don't know how or why. Last time, I took a ( Read more... )

Not self injury. I don't want anyone worried about that, I'm not at that stage at all ( Read more... )