to be happy, to be light, to be carefree!

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I did some apparently much needed soul searching last night. This whole wedding thing has been stressing me out lately, everyone wants something from my day and I have my expectations and there's just no way everyone can get everything they want. I finally figured it out though and I talked to Jesse about it this morning, and he agrees, it's perfect. While I want the white dress, pictures, memories, friends, everything a wedding is supposed to be, my family will cause unimaginable drama. I can't remember ever having both parents together in one place in my life, not even when I was born. I'd decided previously that we should just spend the wedding money (our money, little to no family contributions have been offered) on a cruise and get married at sea. Several people have issues with that though, including Jesse. So, I made a time-consuming list of who wants what from our wedding and figured the best way to please the most people with Jesse and me most important-it is OUR day, not theirs. I came up with perfection. We'll have a very small outdoor wedding with parents and grandparents and maid of honor and best man only, traditional aspects but less costly ($1000 for the day). Then we'll go on our tropical honeymoon, not being tropical would be a deal breaker for both of us. We will be somewhere in the Caribbean for 5 days or more. After that, we'll have a very casual backyard reception with food, pictures, family, friends, dj, all of that and actually be able to enjoy it because we'll have already had our wedding day and won't be overwhelmed.
Finally, I'm not worried about pissing someone off, being too stressed myself, or anything like that. This will be my week-long wedding and I will enjoy every minute of it because it will be done exactly the way I want it.