bah

[dirtytrifles]

i think it is not meant to be

i will never even get a fucking "chorus" role at the maverick

i think having been associated with ryan at the maverick has done me more harm than good

i'm never going to get cast in anything there - ever

i had read about that place and wanted to do something there for such a long time

it was my idea to audition for midsummer's in the first place - he got in and i didn't

now he gets to be a part of that

i so badly wanted to be a part of that

i guess just his other girlfriends that aren't me get to be a part of it

fuck it

whatever