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listening to norah jones and up late doing nothing. i'm so dumb sometimes. anyway, me and trisha had a good talk. we always have our best talks when it's late. there's so much that i want to do in life, so much that i expect, but i never can see things happening to me. ideally, i'd like to be married before my late 20's, but i can't even picture myself getting married. i can't even picture myself a year from now. i don't allow myself to think too far into the future otherwise i get really disappointed, not that i'm not already disappointed in myself now. the thought of becoming a pharmacist crossed my mind today. i've thought about it before, but not much. i don't know a lot about it to be honest, but then again, i don't really know much about cultural studies and comparative lit. i wish i could do that. it's so interesting, but right now, i lack the focus that it calls for. i still haven't caught up on the readings. anyway. i really should've taken a chemistry course this semester before giving up. i shouldn't just give up. there's some things we all need to give up on, but something like this, i really shouldn't have. i'm sorry if i don't make a lot of sense, i've discovered that i kind of talk/write in circles. anyway, tonight's grey's anatomy was amazing, the office was a bit disappointing, and this weekend i'm going to freeze my ass off. i wish i had more to say, but right now, i don't. goodnight.