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last night was awkward. it was brittany's birthday, and it wasnt planned very well. we went to vintage on first friday! it was so crowded. and i am sick! people kept stepping on my feet, bumping into me, it was hot. there were drinks being spilled on me which was 10x more annoying than usual, because i wasn't drinking myself--being sick and all.
i haven't been out in a long time. since i have been really focused on school. usually i feel like when i get back together with my friends after a break, things go right back to the way that they were before. but this time it felt different. i feel like people have changed. and im stuck in the same. i could be attributing a lot more to this than what i should be, since im sick it is apparent that it would not be the funnest evening for me...but i dont think i was the only one that felt a little weird? so weird...like that show that used to be on disney.
i just wonder that when i graduate next month, and this whole thing is said and done, will i be able to reconnect with the people i was so close to before? if not...well, i guess its time for change? do i even LIKE going out anymore??? this MUST be the sickness talking!?
i haven't been out in a long time. since i have been really focused on school. usually i feel like when i get back together with my friends after a break, things go right back to the way that they were before. but this time it felt different. i feel like people have changed. and im stuck in the same. i could be attributing a lot more to this than what i should be, since im sick it is apparent that it would not be the funnest evening for me...but i dont think i was the only one that felt a little weird? so weird...like that show that used to be on disney.
i just wonder that when i graduate next month, and this whole thing is said and done, will i be able to reconnect with the people i was so close to before? if not...well, i guess its time for change? do i even LIKE going out anymore??? this MUST be the sickness talking!?