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ok so its saturday and im not doing ne thign, im talking to cindy online and alex is about to call me again, and right now i can cry i think its b cuz im about to have my period but im just soOo stressed out.. and i REALLY wanted to see wesley 2nite, but apparently he is with josh (???) for some basketball thingy?????? idk i didn't ask too many questions i was just like w.e and left it alone...but now josh is going wiht cindy to counties and i am going with alex.. so i think that it will be fun, and if we don't like it then we can leave...and that will be that... but i don't have a dress i dont have shoes, i don't know if i should make a hair appointment or just walk in.. i just don't knwo what to do at this moment, and ughhh! its soOo annoying! and i really wanted to see wesley 2nite, and it pisses me off, b cuz he doesn't call me at all, but then he says " oh we don't spend a lot of time 2gether" and im thinking, well you don't call me, and if i do call you.. your doing something, and you have to go and then he doesn't even call me back!!! that i find overly annoying! what else...i mean i love him to death.....but if i don't spend time alone with him i think im going to break!!!!!!! i will!!!!!!!!! and on sunday or monday he was talkign about this and then we kinda decided that we were going ot do "something" on saturday but that didn't happen.. i mean its almost sunday which means that its almost monday and i have 4 dayz till counties! OH! and friday was red & whites, and idk if wesley went or if he did go who he went with???? i just have A LOT of things going threw my head right now and i feel like im going to explode and break down crying!!!!!!!!! and i can't take it!!!!!!! i mean its not even how we don't make out a lot of get many opportunities to have sex.. its nothing like that... i just wanna spend time with him! thats all! that other stuff can come later!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ugh my eyes are burning... im going to sleep.. ttyl xoxoxo