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[dirtysnowbunnie]

i havnt been on this thing in a long long time, and so much has happened... but ill take about whats happening now......... so.. me and wesley are back 2gether.. right and last nite we were talking and he asked me if i loved him or if im in love with him...and i said both b cuz thats the truth, and when i said that i was pretty sure that i was in love with him.. until he said that he jsut loves me and isn't quite sure if he is in love with me....and i asked how can someone be in love with someone that doesn't love you the same way back? so may b im not in love with him the way i was in love with him b4????????? ya kno??? i mean i know that i have always loved him and never stopped loving him... but i know its not the same like it was, and i knew it wasn't going to be.. i knew that it was going to be different and my love for him never changed.. much...even when i was overly mad at him.. and the rest of the world and i tried so hard to hate him which only made me love him more i still loved him.. idk its weird, but when he said that i think i felt the world crumble..and he was like are you mad, and i was like no, b cuz i wasn't mad i was hurt, if i was mad i would let him know...but i wasn't.. ugh! idk it was weird......... and i was crying all nite and now my eyes are burning when i woke up they wree still red, but i don't think that they are red ne more.. but they still burn......i havn't worn ne make up in 2 dayz.. which isn't a big deal.. but my skin feels better, i don't know why... well yea i do i started to use this stuff by clinique.. good stuff... good expensive stuff...but still good stuff but yea i have so much on my mind and i really need to talk to my dance teacher miss jennifer shes really cool and completely understands me, and hopefully she will give me a job and i can start to teach something there, for little people.. ugh soOo excited!!!!!!!! can't wait!
oh! and liz.. remember what i was telling you about that girl ashley.. my thunder is still mine **i think** so all is well... luv ya lots! xoxo

thats about it.... i will update on this thing more.. xoxo