dont take time to sew your stiches
i felt so horrible yesterday. i still do. i was on the phone with john yesterday and he wasnt really talking to me. instead he was fighting with his ex gf over the net. i acted like a friend and told him 'john shes not worth it tell her shes lame and to fuck off lol'. but he just kept fighting with her. i got so upset because he is such an intelligent guy and for him to lower himself down to her stupidity by fighting back...i just didnt see a need for it. he is so much better then that...
i then got hurt that he would rather fight with that low life then speak to me. so i said 'well ihave to go cause its obvious you rather fight with her then speak to me.'
he felt bad and said he would come visit me. i told him not too. and said goodbye.
as soon as i hung up that phone all my feelings of anger turned into misery. i felt horrible, not for myself, but for making him feel horrible or sad or whatever....i went to work and it was eating away at me. i couldnt wait to hear his voice again to tell him im not mad.
he ended up commiing anyways:) he said he had to see me and whatnot.
i took my break with him and things were fine.w e talked it through. i told him i wasnt mad anymroe, i jusst wanted him to understand that shes not worth the bother.
i didnt want him to leave last nite..i just wanted to hug him all nite<3
we get to see each other today so ime ally happy abot that.
he wrote me a poem. its sooo beautiful i read it a dozon times...cried a little hehe*im such a girl*
another reason why i got upset is cause this girl is a highclassretard. i mean it. the stories john tells me about her...i dotn knwo her, yet i want to punch her in the face and knock some sence into her..trust me im one of the many. she goes to my school too haha.
she is he most shallow, selfcentered, clueless, person iv ever heard about. she thinks the world revolves around her, and i seriously pitty the company that she keeps.
once again...im so sorry john...*squishy squishy*hehe
i then got hurt that he would rather fight with that low life then speak to me. so i said 'well ihave to go cause its obvious you rather fight with her then speak to me.'
he felt bad and said he would come visit me. i told him not too. and said goodbye.
as soon as i hung up that phone all my feelings of anger turned into misery. i felt horrible, not for myself, but for making him feel horrible or sad or whatever....i went to work and it was eating away at me. i couldnt wait to hear his voice again to tell him im not mad.
he ended up commiing anyways:) he said he had to see me and whatnot.
i took my break with him and things were fine.w e talked it through. i told him i wasnt mad anymroe, i jusst wanted him to understand that shes not worth the bother.
i didnt want him to leave last nite..i just wanted to hug him all nite<3
we get to see each other today so ime ally happy abot that.
he wrote me a poem. its sooo beautiful i read it a dozon times...cried a little hehe*im such a girl*
another reason why i got upset is cause this girl is a highclassretard. i mean it. the stories john tells me about her...i dotn knwo her, yet i want to punch her in the face and knock some sence into her..trust me im one of the many. she goes to my school too haha.
she is he most shallow, selfcentered, clueless, person iv ever heard about. she thinks the world revolves around her, and i seriously pitty the company that she keeps.
once again...im so sorry john...*squishy squishy*hehe