now im lost living inside myself
:*(
i spent the entire day with my parents and brother today. it was actually...nice.
we drove all around...went to the lake. we made my mum happy and took her to a gardening place. she bought so many flowers lol. while they were at that nursery i stayed in the car and i got to talk to chris. i asked him how the weather in florida was. he said it was hot and humid..perfect beach weather..perfect jilly weather. he is doing well. he is going to europe i believe this summer. he made me laugh with his reference to the 'copa'. he keeps trying to convince me he is a 'screaming queen' and goes to these gay clubs. i know the ones he is talking about cause im always passing by them. when i was with him i asked him to take me. he said no. the truth came out. anyways, i miss the guy..img lad to hear he is well. he wants me to come down...nad to bring my uncle lol. i remember the last time i as there, him, sean my uncle and myself all got drunk off of hienekens and talked about music all nite. that was actually cool.
anyways, we then went out for dinner to redlobster *drools* it was a nice surprise:) i had shrimp and beer. lovely. i was with my parents but the waiter still carded me. my dad told me it was cause he just wanted to see my name. that reminded me of what happened to me at vatikan..numerous times lol *eww*.
well, wouldnt u know after dinner im walking out and i see the waiter 'wink' and say good bye at the same time to me.
oh man.
i asked my dad to bring me to kipling so i could go see john. he said no because my mum has to go home to garden and he wants to go to bed and doesnt want to wait up for me:( this really sucks. i made plans with john...and i feel really bad...i hate cancling plans with him...not just because i dont get to see him, but because its not fair to him either:( he is so understanding though. im glad he had a good time with his friend today though.:)
lol at dinner i couldnt stop talkiing about him adn his dog to my parents lol.
i came home, talked to him for a little bit, and then took a nice hot bath. my nose bled alot today when i got home so i needed to relax i was feeling very dizzy. now im feeling 'ok'..but just sad.....
i spent the entire day with my parents and brother today. it was actually...nice.
we drove all around...went to the lake. we made my mum happy and took her to a gardening place. she bought so many flowers lol. while they were at that nursery i stayed in the car and i got to talk to chris. i asked him how the weather in florida was. he said it was hot and humid..perfect beach weather..perfect jilly weather. he is doing well. he is going to europe i believe this summer. he made me laugh with his reference to the 'copa'. he keeps trying to convince me he is a 'screaming queen' and goes to these gay clubs. i know the ones he is talking about cause im always passing by them. when i was with him i asked him to take me. he said no. the truth came out. anyways, i miss the guy..img lad to hear he is well. he wants me to come down...nad to bring my uncle lol. i remember the last time i as there, him, sean my uncle and myself all got drunk off of hienekens and talked about music all nite. that was actually cool.
anyways, we then went out for dinner to redlobster *drools* it was a nice surprise:) i had shrimp and beer. lovely. i was with my parents but the waiter still carded me. my dad told me it was cause he just wanted to see my name. that reminded me of what happened to me at vatikan..numerous times lol *eww*.
well, wouldnt u know after dinner im walking out and i see the waiter 'wink' and say good bye at the same time to me.
oh man.
i asked my dad to bring me to kipling so i could go see john. he said no because my mum has to go home to garden and he wants to go to bed and doesnt want to wait up for me:( this really sucks. i made plans with john...and i feel really bad...i hate cancling plans with him...not just because i dont get to see him, but because its not fair to him either:( he is so understanding though. im glad he had a good time with his friend today though.:)
lol at dinner i couldnt stop talkiing about him adn his dog to my parents lol.
i came home, talked to him for a little bit, and then took a nice hot bath. my nose bled alot today when i got home so i needed to relax i was feeling very dizzy. now im feeling 'ok'..but just sad.....