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I cant believe that i am the way i am. I have such a tough shell but inside im just a torn up mess..
-i love john a lot
-david and i are over
-i cant help what happened. i just dont have the feelings for him anymore, the shit he did was way to much and i should have never put up with it.
((im sry this is in here but for right now i need to get it out))
i have been in a shitty mood since i have been home from work.
i havent really stopped crying
((for john))i just wish i was still out there, hanging out with him everyday. going to bed looking at him and waking up looking at him. its just so hard and i miss it so fucking much. he is the only one who makes me feel good a bout who i am, he is the only one who dosent make me mad and i have never been totally upset with him, he always makes me laugh and is the best company. he is my best friend and always will be. and no matter what happens between us, or to us... i will always remember and cherish all the memories we have had and hopefully more to come soon..
*i just wish i was with you*
-i love john a lot
-david and i are over
-i cant help what happened. i just dont have the feelings for him anymore, the shit he did was way to much and i should have never put up with it.
((im sry this is in here but for right now i need to get it out))
i have been in a shitty mood since i have been home from work.
i havent really stopped crying
((for john))i just wish i was still out there, hanging out with him everyday. going to bed looking at him and waking up looking at him. its just so hard and i miss it so fucking much. he is the only one who makes me feel good a bout who i am, he is the only one who dosent make me mad and i have never been totally upset with him, he always makes me laugh and is the best company. he is my best friend and always will be. and no matter what happens between us, or to us... i will always remember and cherish all the memories we have had and hopefully more to come soon..
*i just wish i was with you*