draining... as ariel would say
i woke up this morning to a big funk of depression. i miss having people in my life that i have history with. i miss the bay area so badly.
i have to go to san diego in a couple of weeks for my cousin's wedding. not only have i not seen any of my extended family since i transitioned, but i'm going to have to deal with all the drama with my mom and her mental health stuff. but, i'm really looking forward to seeing my sister. i'm not looking forward to a weekend of confusion and weird comments from my family and thier friends. crap.
i really want to get some paying work at 11 madison park, but it looks like it's not gonna happen. maybe i need to let go of the whole "i NEED to have NYC resturaunt experience" thing and just move back to oakland, get a job baking somewhere and save up money so i can go do the proper pastry thing and apprentice in france for a year or two.
anyways. i need phone calls and love from my peeps from the bay area. it would make me so happy to hear your voices.
i have to go to san diego in a couple of weeks for my cousin's wedding. not only have i not seen any of my extended family since i transitioned, but i'm going to have to deal with all the drama with my mom and her mental health stuff. but, i'm really looking forward to seeing my sister. i'm not looking forward to a weekend of confusion and weird comments from my family and thier friends. crap.
i really want to get some paying work at 11 madison park, but it looks like it's not gonna happen. maybe i need to let go of the whole "i NEED to have NYC resturaunt experience" thing and just move back to oakland, get a job baking somewhere and save up money so i can go do the proper pastry thing and apprentice in france for a year or two.
anyways. i need phone calls and love from my peeps from the bay area. it would make me so happy to hear your voices.