Getting older is a weird thing...
I've never really worried much about aging. I've enjoyed all 'phases' of life and the different types of fun you lust over at each milestone... but now as I'm getting closer to 30 it just seems weird. The only thing I've ever come close to worrying about is having a child before it's too late, but lately I've started to wonder if there are things I love that I will inevitably let go of, or whether my generation will maintain it's more apparent youthfulness than the baby boomers, which will keep me... as me... for as long as I please.
I've had so much fun all throughout my life and the last year or so I have moved well past the, 'going out drinking every week' stage and am having quite possibly even more fun than any of that ever brought me. I don't doubt though, that it is just a change in lifestyle and that had I refrained from going out when I was younger I would have felt like I was having less fun. I'm glad I experienced reckless, skanky, early 20's behaviour... and now while I look back on all my drinky memories with much fondness, I still don't for the world miss any of it. This is what makes me wonder if I eventually stop going to live gigs, will I be glad I don't go to them anymore? Plus all the adventure that I've found the past year... will I one day be glad I don't do that anymore? Hopefully drinking in skanky clubs is just that paradigm of a lifestyle that, while fun when young, has never hidden the fact how seedy it is... but now... instead of embracing and laughing at the seediness of it, decided that, yes.... it has and always will be seedy, it's not OK to be seedy anymore, and I'm more than OK with that. So my OVERALL point is that I really hope that I don't ever outgrow my current lifestyle like I did my last. I love this life.
I have named my kayak, Glen Coco. You go, Glen Coco!
I've had so much fun all throughout my life and the last year or so I have moved well past the, 'going out drinking every week' stage and am having quite possibly even more fun than any of that ever brought me. I don't doubt though, that it is just a change in lifestyle and that had I refrained from going out when I was younger I would have felt like I was having less fun. I'm glad I experienced reckless, skanky, early 20's behaviour... and now while I look back on all my drinky memories with much fondness, I still don't for the world miss any of it. This is what makes me wonder if I eventually stop going to live gigs, will I be glad I don't go to them anymore? Plus all the adventure that I've found the past year... will I one day be glad I don't do that anymore? Hopefully drinking in skanky clubs is just that paradigm of a lifestyle that, while fun when young, has never hidden the fact how seedy it is... but now... instead of embracing and laughing at the seediness of it, decided that, yes.... it has and always will be seedy, it's not OK to be seedy anymore, and I'm more than OK with that. So my OVERALL point is that I really hope that I don't ever outgrow my current lifestyle like I did my last. I love this life.
I have named my kayak, Glen Coco. You go, Glen Coco!