warbot go! go! go!
i dont hate my life. my life is my son. i love him with every ounce of being in me. in fact, i love everything about my life because he has become a part of everything about my life. i thought for quite awhile that i hated my life. i hated everything because things havent gone how i had wanted them to. things rarely will unless youre alone. being alone isnt all its cracked up to be anyway. thats what makes life livable, not being alone. taking those chances with someone else, holding that hand as you jump into something new. people ask me why i dont go out with ladies anymore, i dont need to, not yet, ive got calvin. watching him grow and learn is amazing beyond words. he is so big now, his head is at doorknob height already. seeing the changes in him as he grows, its like nothing anyone else can show you or you can do yourself. he is why i love life, why i love living. ill live for awhile, so i can see him get older and have kids of his own. maybe great grandkids for me. nothing beats hearing my son say, "i love you papa." it melts my heart everytime. every. single. time.