Mar 09, 2005 15:38
the past week has been quite an adventure for me, and not in the oh-so-fun-goonies ways either. first i have been stuck on this rollercoaster of emotions. thank god stelzig has verizon or my bill this month would be HUGE!! i love free mobile to mobile! anyways, im not sure what exactly is causeing all of this stress and anxiety. im sure it isnt just one thing. school, work, mark, everything.
i just dont know how to decide what it is that im gonna have to put on the backburner for a little while. i know school is supposed to be the most important thing. however, i have let that fall a little behind, a move im sure i'll pay for dearly later. but ive really been trying these past few weeks and i just hope its not too little too late.
work is very similar to the 7th level of hell to me. my boss is a lying and unprofessional floozy. sometimes i just want to burn the whole place down.
and mark.... where do i begin. sometimes he is absolutley perfect. but i usually have to wait, and wait and wait and wait for that moment to come along. its like he always has something just a little more important than me to take care of. for once i want to be just a little important.
i try to do as much as i can for the people that i love and care about, and all i need is just for once to feel like somebody will take care of me. and stelzig you do a fantastic job, but its your turn to be babied for awhile. so enjoy it and dont worry about me.
i dont know. for lack of a better phrase, i feel stuck in this rut. hopefully this will all change soon. im getting my finances back on track, and stelzig has decided to move in when cortney leaves me. and my academics can only get better.
yours,
whitney