I don't hate my birthday...I just don't really care.
I hold a funeral to myself. I will never be 16 again. Its lost forever. Is that why I wore black today? I morn for another lost year of my childhood-youth.
I think with each passing year, I dislike my birthday more and more. I mean, I like getting to choose whatever foods I want to eat all day long, and the presents aren't a bad thing either...I just don't like it. I think, if it wasn't for my family, I would never care about my birthday a wink. Perhaps this is due to the numerous bad birthdays I have had in the past. I like where I am in life. I don't want to grow up. I feel pretty much carefree (as carefree as someone can be). But I am determined never to keep my youth close at mind. I love celebrating other people's birthdays! (bring it on!) But for some reason, my birthdays to me, are like every other day.
But I am now 17. It's official, yesterday was my birthday. I can't deny it. 16 was the best year I have ever had.....but I must be hopeful. God is not through with me yet, and He will fill my life with surprises (be it good or bad). I shall pray to trust in Him though sometimes I may be hesitant about my future.
Do not mistake me, I am not unhappy. And I did have a great day yesterday! I usually do...I just didn't care whether it was my birthday ever or not.
A very merry Christmas
and a happy New Year
Let's hope its a good one
without any fear.
Yes yes, without fear....
Then let us all with one accord
Sing praises to our heavenly Lord;
That hath made heaven and earth of naught,
And with His blood mankind hath bought.
Noel, Noel, Noel, Noel,
Born is the King of Israel.
I think that verse says it all....
I think with each passing year, I dislike my birthday more and more. I mean, I like getting to choose whatever foods I want to eat all day long, and the presents aren't a bad thing either...I just don't like it. I think, if it wasn't for my family, I would never care about my birthday a wink. Perhaps this is due to the numerous bad birthdays I have had in the past. I like where I am in life. I don't want to grow up. I feel pretty much carefree (as carefree as someone can be). But I am determined never to keep my youth close at mind. I love celebrating other people's birthdays! (bring it on!) But for some reason, my birthdays to me, are like every other day.
But I am now 17. It's official, yesterday was my birthday. I can't deny it. 16 was the best year I have ever had.....but I must be hopeful. God is not through with me yet, and He will fill my life with surprises (be it good or bad). I shall pray to trust in Him though sometimes I may be hesitant about my future.
Do not mistake me, I am not unhappy. And I did have a great day yesterday! I usually do...I just didn't care whether it was my birthday ever or not.
A very merry Christmas
and a happy New Year
Let's hope its a good one
without any fear.
Yes yes, without fear....
Then let us all with one accord
Sing praises to our heavenly Lord;
That hath made heaven and earth of naught,
And with His blood mankind hath bought.
Noel, Noel, Noel, Noel,
Born is the King of Israel.
I think that verse says it all....